seizures and short term memory loss

I may not have epilepsy, however one specialist that I did see said he had no doubts that I do, this was based on how my boyfriend described all 4 different types of seizure that he has seen thus far. I have had 5 head injuries from having seizures at the wrong time in the wrong place of my traylor. From these head injuries I now deal with short term memory loss. I have not been able to fully accept my disability yet so adding the memory loss has been very difficult for me. I rely on my daughter and boyfriend for any memory of the past three years of my life. I remember little about my high school days and even regarding past relationships. The memory loss has been one of my largest hurdels when it comes to my studies but I am determined too finish something I have wanted all my life. I always say, It's better to try then not to try at all. There are days when things overwelm me and all I want to do is hide from the world, other days I just lay in bed all day wanting too just give up. Yet the next day rolls around and somewhere somehow I find more strength to battle yet anither day in a life I don't feel comfertable with. May God bless you all, Joyce