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A new Beginning

Wed, 07/05/2006 - 12:53
by Author Stacey Chillemi There comes a time when the meaning of life begins to make sense There comes a time when the meaning of life begins to make sense, At first it may not, The sky at first may look dark, The path one needs to walk down may be hard to see, Never let a disorder control one’s destiny, life created will not move forward, cannot be positive, fulfilling future, If you let it control your mind, body and soul, At this point, one cannot give up, A disorder cannot control, You control your disorder, Accept yourself, Accept your disorder, Love yourself now and forever, You were thrown against a corner when you developed epilepsy, Getting up was not an option, Now it is, Today is a new day, If you stay down life will pass you by, So help yourself get up, fight the battle and win, To win the battle you do not have to stop having seizures, Winning the battle is teaching you how to live a healthy productive life, Helping you cope, Life may not always become what you want them to be, The road you lead may have some u-turns involved, Do not fear, For change can be good, Follow your path that was laid out for you, The sun is now shinning, You can now see your path There is a plan, a destiny that awaits you, Do not question your destiny, Do not ask questions such as “why me?” Accept the path that has been laid in front of you. Do not be afraid, Take one day at a time, Be proud of who you are, Walk with courage and your head up high, Believe in yourself, Focus on the positive, For the footsteps imbedded in ground of your new path will become the solid foundation to you future.

Comments

Re: A new Beginning

Submitted by Orien2 on Mon, 2008-04-14 - 01:48

What future, I don't have one?  It seems like everything I try to do fails completely.  I used to think I was completely defective.  I studied for the damn tests but kept botching them in college no matter what I did I still failed so I reasoned I just wasn't good at school because I was stupid so I quit wasting everyone's time and left college.

Tried to do something else but no one would give me a chance.  Found a chance but couldn't take advantage of it because my grandma decided to move in with us.  Studied security to get a job and move out.  I scored a 72 on the damn ASVAB the fracking millitary wanted me would have taken care of everything but my mom didn't want to take any responsibility for the pathetic life form she brought into our lives so I got stuck with the check.

So I ask you what future?  All I see is a bunch of fracking seizures, a bunch of pills being trapped in a life I didn't want to begin with, with a bunch of stupid people who took the last chance I had and left me with nothing but a crazy old lady I hated for barging in, then epilepsy on top of that.  I've had it with destiny, I've had it with God's plan and the only reason I tolerated his hands in my life in the first place was I had no use for satan.


 

What future, I don't have one?  It seems like everything I try to do fails completely.  I used to think I was completely defective.  I studied for the damn tests but kept botching them in college no matter what I did I still failed so I reasoned I just wasn't good at school because I was stupid so I quit wasting everyone's time and left college.

Tried to do something else but no one would give me a chance.  Found a chance but couldn't take advantage of it because my grandma decided to move in with us.  Studied security to get a job and move out.  I scored a 72 on the damn ASVAB the fracking millitary wanted me would have taken care of everything but my mom didn't want to take any responsibility for the pathetic life form she brought into our lives so I got stuck with the check.

So I ask you what future?  All I see is a bunch of fracking seizures, a bunch of pills being trapped in a life I didn't want to begin with, with a bunch of stupid people who took the last chance I had and left me with nothing but a crazy old lady I hated for barging in, then epilepsy on top of that.  I've had it with destiny, I've had it with God's plan and the only reason I tolerated his hands in my life in the first place was I had no use for satan.


 

Re: A new Beginning

Submitted by dpniner on Tue, 2008-04-15 - 09:01
Life with epilepsy can suck big time. Most times when I get REALLY pissed or depressed it usually seems to involve someone close to me, someone who just doesn't seem to "understand" or "accept" my inherent limitations. Or even worse yet, someone hasn't come to terms with the fact that I have epilepsy, and expect me to bend my life in order to accommodate their refusal to face reality. Very rarely have I ever felt dealt an "unfair" hand. Or more accurately, very rarely have I actually been dealt an unfair hand, regardless of my initial perception. Yes, that stigma about epilepsy will be around long after we see our first minority or woman in The White House, but in all honesty there are plenty of other equally destructive stigmas out there involving other aspects of people's lives they can't control (sexual preference, skin color, religious affiliation, etc.). What I'm trying to say is that every time I've had the urge to do something tragic and final I've come to realize that the main motivation behind my feelings was anger and hurt. More specifically, it was anger toward a particular person or situation against which I felt powerless. And in some odd way, I've always managed to call to mind the fact that had I acted upon my urges at that moment I would have done nothing to actually resolve the situation. In fact, I would have actually validated that person's position. That's always been enough to get me through until the cloud passed or I found someone to sit down and have a cup of coffee with. Just food for thought.

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