Epilepsy Mental health- help

Hi guys. This is a very long story so brace yourselves... 13 years ago I suffered my first seizure, I had 3 more all during pregnancy and then I was very lucky and went 12 years seizure free on lamotrigine 400mg. All up until now :-( in Jan this year I was at work and had a feeling I’d not had in a very very long time- an aura/partial seizure, these used to be followed by a grand-mal but nothing happened and I went on about my business! Anyway weekend came and it happened again, this time I was worried! All sorts going through my mind! Anyway to cut a long story short for 3 months now I’ve been having auras but no grand- malls following, neuro put me on Clobozam thinking it was due to an infection anyway that didn’t help so he has now put me on keppra alongside my lamotrigine. Day 2 of the keppra and I am still having my partials- I am heartbroken this has come back! It’s always been something I’ve swept under the carpet, I’ve always been ashamed to say I’m epileptic, I don’t know why I just have! Since this has all kicked off again I’ve been severely depressed, not going out, not going in work, having suicidal thoughts u name it I’ve felt it. Please help! Any success stories, advice anything will be much appreciated at the minute!