something wrong when I was in gradeschool

Goodmorning everyone, I just recently found out some things that have hurt me deeply as well as angered me. My mom recently admitted too me that Dad and Her knew there was something wrong with me when I was in third grade but figured If they ignored it, I would grow out of it. My parents also has admitted to not being very affectionate or very understanding when it came too us kids being sick or acting different then usual. I had a good councelor but lost the coverage due too cut backs so I no longer have weekly sessions or the group sessions as well. My councelor did tell me that the lack of knowledge and effort from my parents when I needed the help has contributed too my disorders and disabilities. Last month when she told me that the anger and hurt will not carry much of an impact untill the shock of the truth wears off then I will have trouble accepting yet another hurtfull issue. I did not want to believe her but she was right, the tears and angery outbursts are showing there ugly faces and I am really struggeling with all this new information at once syndrome. Do you ever get used to the hurtfull remarks people say too you? Does the numb feeling ever really go away or do you just get so used to it that you don't really notice that it's there anymore? I have been called a faker, its all in my head, psycho, freak and so many more and I react poorly twards the person who calls me these names. Knowing that I can come to this site and write how I truely feel without being judged really does help but I wish I had friends that I could see face to face at times. I know I can not change what happened years ago, but I can try to forgive my parents, learn all that I can to help myself grow from the inside out from all of this and somehow be a better person down the road for my boyfriend and daughter. However, for the moment that is not a belief that I have, I will some day but right now I need to deal with the betrayed feelings, the hurt and the anger. Thank you everyone for listening to me this morning, may God bless you all. Joyce