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A poem i found i had written 4 yeards ago when i first found out i had epilepsy
Wed, 05/19/2010 - 03:22I found this poem from when i first found out I had epilepsy. I was diagnosed freshman year of highschool and now i just finished my first year of college. its amazing how my opinion has changed so much. tell me what you think of it
I'm trapped and I can't get out
I'm just below the surface but I can't swim
They give me pills that help me breath underwater
I see all my friends above in the sunlight
They're laughing and joking
But I'm stuck down here and i can only watch
They come visit me and we swim together
We laugh and joke and I'm having fun
But then they have to leave
They swim up to the surface and I can only watch
I stay down here by myself
People above say they want to help and they care
But they will never know what it's like
To be stuck down here with nothing but hope that i can go back to where i was
But I know it will never happen
I see the people
I envy them so much
They aren't stuck down here
Forced to look up at the outside with the warm sun and smiling faces
They fear for my safety
I assure them I'm fine
When I wait for themm all to go to the surface I cry
I've been stuck down here for years
I've almost drowned six times
Every time it brings me closer to the bottom
I see others down here just like me
I can make them out barely because it's so dark
We understand each other
We know what it's like to not be able to be in the light
Some of them were born down here
They'll never know what it's like
They're lucky
I used to live in the light
But one day the darkness pulled me down
They thought I was dead
But I was only stuck
They couldn't pull me back up
So they found ways to keep me alive
At first I was scared
I didn't know what was in the dark with me
But it was only the others
But there's a monster that circles us everyday
We help each other now
It eases our pain
Some of us hide it with fake laughter
Others let their emotions get the better of them
I keep looking to the surface
I shouldn't though
It's a lost cause
We're playing a terrible game
Every day is the same question
Will it happen today?
I'm swimming when my pills stop working
I'm drowning
Everything goes black as I see people diving to help me
All I can see is a soft light above
I want to go to it
It's my freedom to the surface
My hand goes out to touch it
But as I reach the monster comes from behind
It goes past me towards the soft light
It's roaring in triumph
I look with horror as the light is swallowed
My battle is lost again