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happiness
Wed, 05/02/2007 - 03:34its hard to be happy when you have no control over your life. i live as a prisoner in my own home. i have no will power. it takes days to accomplish things that require just minutes. i am a burden to my family. i want to die but i cannot because suicide is shameful - it will bring sadness to my family.
i am stuck. i am stale. my pride has disappeared. i have no hobbies. at the moment the joy in my life consists of the nba playoffs. what will i do? i dont know.
i hope i die during my next seizure because it will mean i did not commit suicide.
Comments
Re: Re: Re: Re: happiness
Submitted by Eternal howl on Thu, 2007-10-25 - 23:57
Work isn't fun, but sometimes it can be (depending on what you do). I see work as not just a means to make money, but it also helps give people a sense of purpose. If you are unable to work, you need to find something that will give you a sense of purpose. My job is stressful, but today for instance, I left with a feeling of accomplishment. It's not often I feel that when I leave work. But it also makese me appreciate my down time (my weekends).
You need to find something to absorb yourself in - something productive or creative. Or learn something. Learn something via internet or whereever - teach yourself. You can do it.
Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: happiness
Submitted by xgi on Fri, 2007-10-26 - 07:44
You sound young. Life is not always fair. We get the hand we get dealt and we play it the best we can. Life has it ups and downs but we do the best we can. I too tried to take my life during a sez and glad I didn't. Stay alive... Email me if you want to talk landman64@hotmail.com God bless...x
Re: Re: Re: happiness
Submitted by sackofrice on Thu, 2007-10-25 - 17:35
i never cared about epilepsy until about 5 years ago when it started getting worse. i decided 6 months ago that i would live but it seems i am still slowly dying. i guess this is worse than suicide: to live for others and letting them watch you suffer. i know work is not fun when you do it all the time but working for that one week made me really happy. i should have never put myself in that position; it was like walking into a trap. since i am here i should make sure i have a good time. i will probably break down again and feel sorry for myself but i understand there is no reason to punish myself. i will still be here and one day life will be fun and one day i will stop telling hollywood stories that try and get people to feel sorry for me.