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I feel dumb
Sat, 09/15/2007 - 22:43Seriously, I feel stupid. I used to be a very articulate person, now I can barely say the word aloud. There's alot of words like that, even when I'm typing things get messed up. Words that sound alike, that I never had a problem distinguishing one from another before, get switched around. But my speech is by far the worst. I am finding it easier not to talk than to try and get what I'm trying to say from my brain and out through my mouth in an understandable manner. Sometimes I go to speak and everything will literally come out backwards, or the words aren't in the correct spots in the sentence, where they should be. And quite frequently I come out with the wrong words altogether, ie. I want to say front and say french instead. The first letters are right, but it's a totally wrong word. People are begining to look at me like an idiot and I don't blame them, I FEEL like an idiot.
It seems like after each seizure it gets alittle bit worse. I have nightmares of being a mute vegetable by the time I'm 30.
Is this normal? Is it the medication? The seizures? My brain going dead or something? I can still learn without problems, I'm in college and the classes aren't a problem, as long as I don't have to talk.
What area in the brain is our speech located anyways?
Anyone else dealing with this?
I've read through this three times, so I'm hoping there weren't too many mistakes that I've missed, if there are I'm sorry.
Comments
Re: Re: I feel dumb
Submitted by Gina Marie on Mon, 2007-09-17 - 01:06
Thank you banffgirl, for relating your experience. I am grateful that my comprehension skills appear to not be effect. I understand. And I do need to focus on the positives, this is just effecting my life to such a degree it's hard to see things that way.
Re: I feel dumb
Submitted by Colina on Sun, 2007-09-16 - 15:15
Hi Gina. I sure understand what you are saying. Having words come out twisted or backwords frustrated me to no end. What made it even more difficult was that close friends and family laughed almost every time. For the average jo it can be quite funny, the silly words that come out, but they knew it was from my meds. They knew what I was saying so could'nt they just have ignored it? Nope. So I resorted to speaking as little as possible. Poor word recall and forgetting what I was saying was also embarrassing. My best friend was very understanding though and pin pointed it, which later helped me explain to my epi what was happening, she said "it looks like it hurts to think". In my case it was because of my meds which also caused me to slur, be off balance, have horrible tremors and walk into things. The first time I met my epi he said "we have to get you off that med right away". It was the greatest feeling to have myself back and in turn my self esteem has improved greatly. I hope you have success sorting this out too. Press on and make sure your doc knows, it is worth it. I'm glad to have me back. Big hugs n smiles and tc.
Re: I feel dumb
Submitted by banffgirl on Sun, 2007-09-16 - 15:08
gina i do it alot. you arent alone as i read all the answers exept dave44 who is above us all i have learned from reading his other forums. i did that neuro pcho testing and my skills dropped to low to say oh ambarasing. some from brain damage from too mant t/cs. but i also make up weird words when i am having siezures, some of them my huby finds so funny he just wont let me forget them. but gina think of your self as blessed if you can still learn, i cant even read a novel, cuz the next day i pick it up and end up having to start at the 1st page again cuz i dont remeber what happened in what i read before. hugs gina, banffgirl