give me the strength to handle my neuro...

I know others have gone through this. If anyone has advice, please pass it on: I have had symptoms now for nearly two years that are either textbook TLE, or doing a great job of mimicking it. The last time I had seen my neurologist, until yesterday, he finally seemed to think that's what it was. He put me on Trileptal, which is supposed to directly affect your temporal lobes. It worked for awhile, but not so good now. When I went in for my follow up yesterday, he was incredibly insensitive, didn't listen to me, seemed to imply I was either faking all of this or having panic attacks (which my symptoms don't really fit, according to the psychologist he sent me to for evaluation last year), and all around riled me up. I feel hopeless. I feel like there's no way for me to get help. I live in a pretty desolate area, and I have a state run program instead of health insurance. I don't have the option to see someone else--believe me, I've tried. He asked me to call and schedule an EEG next time I was symptomatic (I have my episodes in clusters). I am having them right now, and scheduled an EEG for tomorrow morning. I am deathly afraid that if nothing shows up, it will be impossible for me to get any helpful treatment. As I understand it, seizure activity can be hard to catch. If he doesn't see "proof" this time around though, I think he will completely dismiss the possibility that I have TLE. I am frustrated. I am sick of fighting hard to help myself and feeling like I'll lose no matter what. I want my life back. Whatever is wrong with me, I will do anything to get it treated, but I don't feel like I have the help I need from this doctor. I don't mean to whine. If anyone else has had success dealing with a difficult doctor, and would like to share some wisdom, though, I would welcome it.