Community Forum Archive
The Epilepsy Community Forums are closed, and the information is archived. The content in this section may not be current or apply to all situations. In addition, forum questions and responses include information and content that has been generated by epilepsy community members. This content is not moderated. The information on these pages should not be substituted for medical advice from a healthcare provider. Experiences with epilepsy can vary greatly on an individual basis. Please contact your doctor or medical team if you have any questions about your situation. For more information, learn about epilepsy or visit our resources section.
I'm Living but I'm NOT happy
Tue, 09/19/2006 - 23:58Topic: Teen Zone
anybody ever just get so tired of this. that there is nothing more you can do to help yourself so you really dont want to do anything at all. everyone can feel sorry for you or they can make fun of you and either way nothing can help. there is no escape from this. you cant drink or find an escape that way because it will make it worse in the end. so what will help? i can talk to my mom and dad but they dont understand. they really dont want to hear about anyways. i live in a small town where nobody i know has this. so i do i help myself. i guess i just let it out here. because i just had one of the worst couple of days ever! this is about ready to drive me over the edge..except i cant drive..haha..well so who do i talk to..or what do i say. that i am getting so upset by this i cant even talk. i dont even go out with the friends i do have and i am losing them. i never thought one thing could make me feel this way. whats my escape??
Comments
Re: I'm Living but I'm NOT happy
Submitted by Mel hates JME on Fri, 2007-10-12 - 21:10
I feel the same way, I can talk to anyone, but it doesn't seem to help, I am alone and miserable, I can take a lot and my friends know that, but it just seems to interfere with my stuff, instead of balancing out, I have had to leave my friends on several occasions INCLUDING tonight since I felt bad, it just seems too much to bare right now, I know one kid with epilepsy but we never talk, and I don't feel like I can bother him with this stuff, just doesn't feel fair to make him, oh well, does time heal it? It is what everyone keeps saying, but so far time just keeps making it worse
Re: Re: I'm Living but I'm NOT happy
Submitted by Mel hates JME on Fri, 2007-10-12 - 21:19
Hi I am sorry, I know I have posted twice, but you just captured how I feel perfectly, thank you, it seems that people feel such as me and get the most upset after the seizure, I hate myself after the seizure and blame myself for them, I just want to have control over my body again, to tell my body not to jerk, my mom knows sh cant help me and decided to throw me into therapy, it's just hard to relate to people anymore and my sympathy is gone, I don't bother with the people who think they have it so rough, when I know my friends and I go through ten times what they go through. It's not fair to have to worry about what will set me off, have people ask me if I am going to have one, be babied, and I cannot stand the people who make seizure jokes anymore, it just offends me now. Yesterday this kid in my spanish class was playing with my watch that tells me when to take my medicine, so it's VERY important the settings I have stay that way, I asked who was messing with it and no one said anything I watched him put it down and then called him out for it, it turns out he HAD messed with my settings, and then the rest of class was bothering me about my watch