Looking for a little support

I just joined the community searching for some people to speak with who may make me feel like less of a weirdo :P . I have been having nocturnal seizures for about 5 years now. I've tried 7 or 8 different medicines to control my seizures (with the least amount of side effects). Now, I've switched from Tegretol to Trileptal. I got off schedule on the medecine ONE day (yesterday) and I had a seizure in my early morning sleep. This time was a little different because I actually got up after the TC part of it and started to undress for no apparent reason. My husband couldn't figure out what I was doing and I don't remember anything (never do). Apparently, this was more of the seizure or another seizure maybe? I have heard that performinmg activities like this while you're sleeping could be a Partial Complex. Also, in the last year he says that I've started screaming with my seizures and looking at him with wide-bugged out eyes and seeming like I'm having trouble breathing. The thought of this really creeps me out. Anyway, I just wanted to touch base with some others who may have similar experiences. I have my first Video-EEG (!insurance problems = had none!)scheduled for the end of next month. If anybody would like to share their experiences here, I would love to get a feel for what to expect. Also, I'm dealing with some big mental stress in regards to having epilepsy (and this is where I was looking for the support). I just laid claim to the fact that I do actually have it in the last year or so; before I was pretty much in denial. I hate the sense of lacking self-control. I hate not knowing WHY I suddenly started having these things. I hate putting my husband under so much stress. I hate taking daily medication and I feel like the medications (or maybe the seizures themselves?) have affected my memory and my verbal speech. This has been a pretty big problem being as I'm trying to get my M.A. and am a mother of four. When you can't recall a name or formulate a sentence, people automatically think you're stupid. Also, with my studies, my sleep patterns can be somewhat irregular. This may have contributed to this last one I had . . .