New and My World is Spinning

Hello everyone. On march 31st I had my first seizure in my life at 22 years old. I've always been very healthy, ate well, went to the gym 1-2 times a day, I was happy, outgoing, and fun to be around. In just two weeks, I don't know what I'm the world happen. I had a seizure in my sleep and didn't regain complete consciousness until I was in the hospital about 30 minutes later. There was no warning. About four days later, I had another one also in my sleep, very minor and woke right up from it about 2 minutes later. The neurologist immediately tried me on Briviact, which I had a horrible reaction to, and then I discontinued it, felt great for two days, until they put me on a different medication lamictal. I had a slight allergic reaction to it. Both medications made me severely depressed to where I wanted to cry all the time, couldn't breathe, and easily agitated. I can barely work, I'm not fun or happy and can't concentrate most of the time. I don't know what to do or how to handle any of this, or if I even believe I am epileptic. Im scared to try any more medication because of the side effects I have gotten from those two. He prescribed me Trileptal (spelling?) to try tonight. I can't do this shitty anymore, and I don't want the people around me to deal with it either. Any words?