My Seizure and my friends death

I had a grand mal seizure two years ago which resulted in a serious head injury and a week's stay in the hospital. I have since been on Lamictal and have none none since. Around the same time I had my seizure a good college friend of mine had one as well. He had several in the past and we spoke often about our experiences. Several months later he had another seizure while he was home alone, hit his head and later passed away. He was drinking heavily at the time and there was a good chance he was also using drugs. He had not been taking care of himself and had recently gotten in a bar fight in which he had been hit in the head with a flashlight, possible causing trauma to his brain. This was all very hard for me and I still have trouble dealing with it. Because of his death and my head injury I seem to associate seizures always being traumatic. My Neuro has told me time and time again that If I have another aura, as I did before, to find a safe place and things will be fine when the seizure ends. I also read things in the news that are hard to take in. For example a few days ago a lady had a seizure and supposedly she "would have died" if her 5 year old daughter didn't call 911. Sometimes when I read stuff like this I think the news makes things more dramatic to make for a better story. I know it's possible that she could die, people do, but I wonder if they are making more out of it than it is. I wonder if it's more about a 5 year old that can call 911 than the actual problem at hand. Anyway, because of my experiences every time I get a simple headache or a little lightheaded I start to panic. I associate seizures with long stays in the hospital and even death. I ultimately make myself physically sick over this. I no longer know anyone who has seizures and sometimes wish I had another so I know that I will regain consciousness and things will be ok. I guess I'm not really asking any questions here, but wanted to see is anyone had any thoughts for comfort or reassurance that one can have a seizure that doesn't result in a traumatic experience.