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Musical / Auditory Hallucinations
Sun, 08/19/2007 - 02:02Comments
K-God
Submitted by johndatcher on Thu, 2009-01-08 - 00:33
Dear Miss Dayna-
If you still use this website, I would love , effing love, to hear more about K-God (<-- hilarious). real quick - i've been hallucinating music since August 2007 about. It has only happened powerfully 4 or 5 times, but it has happened gently atleast 50. So far the closest description I have been able to find anywhere was written by an eloquent old lady on another website, she goes by BarbaraCat and she wrote:
"I've experienced mind music for many years, not all the time and not even during any discernable blip in my mental state. Does it feel like you're wearning especially great stereo headphones and the music is very clear? Sometimes I wake up with it, almost on the tail end of a dream but can't remember it because it's so complex and layered. It's always very beautiful music of orchestral grandeur, soaring ecstatic choral passages with unpredictable and delightful musical turns of phrase. I feel like I'm totally present and marvelling at this rapturous enthralling music which is more real than anything in my surrounding. And then it fades away. I love having these private concerts and for a long time when I was young I believed the angels were joyfully singing among themselves and wondered I was able to hear their music. I didn't think it at all odd that no one else could hear it, only odd that I could. No matter what I'm emotionally feeling, this transcendant music can lift me and illuminate me and I wish it visited me more frequently. When it's gone, it visits and then vanishes like a deja-vu, and only an echo of a memory is left. I've come to be much more cynical and suspect that it's probably only a spiking auditory neuron. But what a lovely form for a dissident neural blip to take." briefly for me: it's unrecognizable, beautiful and quirky, i cannot even fully appreciate it for what it is
I found another guy on some forum who described a similar experience and is about my age (23). But he never responded to my e-mail from a few months ago and I feared he died of a brain tumor or something. Then I read more and thought it might be temporal lobe epilepsy although this is unconfirmed. I got an MRI last month but it was negative. I'm seeing a neurologist next week. I do some drugs and I'm worried he'll blame the music on the drugs like my family does. Is K-God similar to BarbaraCat's description? Why does God play this music? I understand if this is too personal, but it would mean a lot if you could share your experience more
thanks, john datcher
Dear Miss Dayna-
If you still use this website, I would love , effing love, to hear more about K-God (<-- hilarious). real quick - i've been hallucinating music since August 2007 about. It has only happened powerfully 4 or 5 times, but it has happened gently atleast 50. So far the closest description I have been able to find anywhere was written by an eloquent old lady on another website, she goes by BarbaraCat and she wrote:
"I've experienced mind music for many years, not all the time and not even during any discernable blip in my mental state. Does it feel like you're wearning especially great stereo headphones and the music is very clear? Sometimes I wake up with it, almost on the tail end of a dream but can't remember it because it's so complex and layered. It's always very beautiful music of orchestral grandeur, soaring ecstatic choral passages with unpredictable and delightful musical turns of phrase. I feel like I'm totally present and marvelling at this rapturous enthralling music which is more real than anything in my surrounding. And then it fades away. I love having these private concerts and for a long time when I was young I believed the angels were joyfully singing among themselves and wondered I was able to hear their music. I didn't think it at all odd that no one else could hear it, only odd that I could. No matter what I'm emotionally feeling, this transcendant music can lift me and illuminate me and I wish it visited me more frequently. When it's gone, it visits and then vanishes like a deja-vu, and only an echo of a memory is left. I've come to be much more cynical and suspect that it's probably only a spiking auditory neuron. But what a lovely form for a dissident neural blip to take." briefly for me: it's unrecognizable, beautiful and quirky, i cannot even fully appreciate it for what it is
I found another guy on some forum who described a similar experience and is about my age (23). But he never responded to my e-mail from a few months ago and I feared he died of a brain tumor or something. Then I read more and thought it might be temporal lobe epilepsy although this is unconfirmed. I got an MRI last month but it was negative. I'm seeing a neurologist next week. I do some drugs and I'm worried he'll blame the music on the drugs like my family does. Is K-God similar to BarbaraCat's description? Why does God play this music? I understand if this is too personal, but it would mean a lot if you could share your experience more
thanks, john datcher
Re: Re: Musical / Auditory Hallucinations
Submitted by dayna on Sat, 2007-08-25 - 21:37
Hi banffgirl, My Musical/Auditory Hallucinations have gone on for so long that we just call it K-God. LOL My Family has gotten used to it, and they send me after the music.They tell me it is my ex serenading me...usually it is gone by the time I get back. Oh how we love those complex seizures!!!!! Awwwwww well we all deal the best we can! My best to you all! Dayna