depakote and marijuana

Hello, my name is jared i am 25 years old i was diagnosed with epilepsy about 4 years ago.  prior to this time i was normal, i did smoke pot almost every day for numerous years and never had a bad experience.  now that i have been on meds for the past 4 years (depakote 500 mg 2 x a day) i am always tense i feel sick anxious and my vision is strange.  i have an overall sense of anxiety constantly.  pot used to calm me down tremendously and help me focus now i am a zombie on these meds!! i no longer like social interaction because of the way i feel and pot makes me feel even worse it exacerbates my anxiety and dizziness.  i am fairly upset because i can no longer drink and pot was the only thing i really enjoyed and the only thing that helped me relax and sleep which is what cause my seizures in the first place, i was having trouble sleeping.  does anyone have any related experience with anything i am going through i am so desperate for help i dont wanna live like this anymore!!!