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Sammi, Get thee to a neurologist and quickly. If your seizures can be brought under control you will not lose your independence. I identify with your frustration with the brain damage you have suffered. My GPA was a 3.97 and my nickname went from genius to stupid, drunk, and crazy. It sucks. It's the meds that are making that way. The brain is plastic. If I can stop seizing for long enough and force myself to keep doing the things I always did even though my head hurts when I do them, I gradually get it back. Not all of the damage has to be permanent. You cannot give up on yourself. I am not as quick as I used to be and my memory is weird, but I am far from stupid. I just keep going and keep trying. GO SEE A NEURO. IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT YOU HEAR, GET A SECOND OPINION. IF YOU STILL DON'T LIKE WHAT YOU HEAR, GET A THIRD OPINION. You have to do something; otherwise, you will end up miserable and then you will end up dead. Baruch Hashem. Hoshia na. Devorah Zealot Soodak <a href="http://psychout.typepad.com/">http://psychout.typepad.com/</a> the zealot needs help! I just added this quickie post. <a href="http://psychout.typepad.com/blog/2010/12/baruch-hashem-hoshia-na-the-jewish-zealot-epileptic-lepers-constant-prayer.html">It explains the Hebrew that I use before I sign my name.</a> P.S. Please read my <a href="http://psychout.typepad.com/">blog</a>. Thanks. P.P.S. <a href="http://psychout.typepad.com/blog/2010/12/devorah-zealot-soodak-deborah-ellen-soodak-debbie-soodak-jfsatlantic_org_omh_state_ny_us_nj_jewish_family_service_federation.html">Please click here to read my latest post.</a> P.P.P.S. <a href="http://psychout.typepad.com/blog/2010/11/www_omy_state_ny_us_new_york_office_of_mental_health_mind_jewish_epileptic_zealot_lunatic_homeless_family_federation_service.html">Please click here to read my featured post.</a> P.P.P.P.S. You can find me here: <a href="http://www.facebook.com/people/Devorah-Zealot-Soodak/100001895109987" target="_TOP" title="Devorah Zealot Soodak">Devorah Zealot Soodak</a><a href="http://www.facebook.com/people/Devorah-Zealot-Soodak/100001895109987" target="_TOP" title="Devorah Zealot Soodak"></a><a href="http://www.facebook.com/badges/" target="_TOP" title="Make your own badge!">Create Your Badge</a>

Sammi, DON"T GIVE UP !!! I too was a 4.0 student. I have a 159 IQ. Yet at times, I feel like the dumbest person on earth. I'm 41 and was diagnosed almost 2 years ago. I was sick for 3 years before that. I haven't been able to work for going on 5 years now.This past month, being epilepsy awareness month, has opened my eyes! The only people you can count on are the ones that understand you. My husband, my children, and the epilepsy community. My own mother and 3 sisters, who I thought were close, told me I had no right to ask them to help spread the word. They don't live with me therefore they don't understand. I had uterine cancer 7 years ago and went through a hysterectomy and the whole menopause thing so I understand what you mean. But, I think my pills make me more emotional than anything else. You sound so much like me. Just know there are people out here who understand you and and everything you go through!!