I just turned 21 and I was diagnosed with a seizure disorder a little under a week ago. My fiance was there with me when i found out and has supported me through all of it, the past few months with all my health problems she had been there for me and i can't thank her anymore but i've never been so scared and i don't know how to handle this all. i've been trying to hold myself together but i lay here in bed at 130am and im wide awake looking up everything possible on what seizure are, the medicines i am on, the side effects, the stories, etc. it's all too much and i don't know what to do. i know i should reach out to my friends and family but im scared to lose them cause what if i'm too much for them to handle. my fiaince's friend the other day asked her if she was still gonna stay with me now that i have this disorder and to even hear that killed me inside to think anyone would leave...so now im even more scared to talk about it and tell people. what if that can't except me for me...not only am i gay but now this. Come on when am i ever going to get a break. If anyone can give me advice or anything to help maybe tips on reaching out, talking about it, ways to relax and calm down, anything at this point would help.