Still waiting for a diagnosis

Hi,I'm Ree and I'm a newbie.5 yrs.ago after my late husband was killed I started having seizures.It lasted 2 months and I had about 8 of them.At the time the DR.s thought they were pseudo seizures brought on by the trauma of my husbands death.I was 35 at the time.Anyway after the 2 months I remained seizure free for 5 yr.s until last week.I was on my computer and laughing and joking with my husband(re-married)and out of no where I went into what the DR.s later told me was a Grand-Mal seizure.I even stopped breathing for about 30 seconds.Then I had a second one about 3 hours later on the way home from the hospital and from what I'm told it was much more violent then the first.I called my primary and he had me go straight to the ER at his hospital where they did a spinal tap and a ct scan.Their not to convinced there pseudo seizures since I hadn't had one for 5 years,I'm also very happily married,have grandchildren and children I love not to mention an Akita who's my best buddy.Not much stress other then some finances so nothing that would have brought on a pseudo.My next tests will be an MRI and an EEG.For right now they only have me on pretty heavy doses of Valium because they said they don't want to give me seizure meds because if you don't give the right ones for the right seizures it can be very dangerous.When I have them my eyes are open,pupils dialted,I've bitten my tongue and I go unconciouus and have no recollection of the seizure.I also get a severe headache right after that'll last about 2 days and cognitively I'm way off for about a week and my memory gets so bad I can't remember my own phone number.They believe it could be adult onset epilepsy or scar tissue from several head injuries I sustained many years ago.Has anyone here ever been told they had pseudo seizures to find out it was really epilepsy or something else/I've also read and been told that pseudo seizures have notable differences to epileptic seizures and that mine sounded like typical Grand-Mal.Any input or experiences would be greatly appreciated.Nothing like waiting for tests results to tell you wether or not you just need a shrink.It's all so frustrating.Thanks in advance for any input...Ree