Life after Epilim

Hi everyone, I'm new to this site. So I am not a new epileptic. I've been epileptic for 17 years. That's over 1/2 of my life. However the thing is, due to a change in medication I am left feeling like a new epileptic. Someone who doesn't know who they are. It's weird. Here's a brief history. I was having myclonic jerks for around 8 months before I was given the diagnoses Juvenile myoclonic. epilepsy. Lovely, was put on epilim and had the seizures under control pretty quickly. I only have 2 or 3 grand mals later on in late teens due to self neglect. Then I changed to Keppra due to pregnancy issues and Epilim. That's when it went all tits up. 3 grand mals 6-8 weeks apart, depression, anxiety, isolation, mood swings, fear of discrimination, overthinking of everything because I didn't want to harm those around me, fear of SUDEP, self-neglect because I was fed up, around 20- 30 myoclonic jerks and absences a day. My life turned upside down. And the worse things about it.... no-one gets it. Hence why I'm here. So now they are changing me to Lamotrogine. And I just hope it works. I've come to the conclusion that I am going to change again. I'm going to probably turn into a new person who I will need to learn to embrace. New personalities, maybe clothes size. I just, needed to get it off my chest. I just needed to talk about it because I think I'm hurting too many ppl around me. It's better to say it to someone who isn't immediately attached to the situation.