Fake Seizure??

Hi... so I don't even really know how to write about this as it's all so new to me. But I am really worried and I hope someone out there has had a similar experience to me... I had my first seizure just before Christmas. I was out drinking with some colleagues but not to excess, and on my way home on the train I had a panic attack (difficulty breathing, really hot, scared, not sure of surroundings). I've had these before and so not a new thing for me. The difference this time was that my eyes rolled back, my body and jaw were completely rigid but I was aware. I could speak but it was very muffled and I'm not sure how much sense I was making but I know I could make a noise even though it was difficult. This lasted around a minute (fellow passengers confirmed). I felt very drowsy after and it happened again a few times before they put me on the floor into the recovery position. An ambulance was called and I was taken to hospital. In total that night I had 9 seizures. They also gave me a head CT which I have absolutely no recollection of at all. But the CT was clear. The next day I also have little memory of, and even getting up and walking after being discharged I was very wobbly on my feet and felt dizzy. I slept for most of the following two days after this attack. My second experience of this was on NYE. I made it past midnight thankfully!! I remember feeling strange and asked someone to come outside with me (as we were in a restaurant) and I had difficulty breathing, but it quickly turned into the same thing as before... eyes rolling back etc. This time I was also sick, but again I had been drinking but not excessively and I had eaten a large amount. I was taken to hospital and had 7 seizures in total that night. Again I was aware through the seizures and I could hear people around me. Again I can't remember a lot of that night at all after the episodes. I was kept in hospital for 2 days this time around and was put on 450g of Epilim (I think that's how it was spelt) as a precaution. I have only had one other thing happen since, and I felt really drowsy and tired and I started to feel strange again but I managed to bring myself out of it by concentrating on other things with my eyes shut and ignoring the outside world. I have read that it is possible to bring yourself out of an aura but is that even what it was? I saw a Neurologist yesterday and she mentioned that my 'panic attacks' may actually be a type of seizure for me. I self diagnosed the panic attacks if I'm honest! She said that it could be the frontal or temporal lobe (I can't remember which as it all came as a shock to me). And she has referred me for an MRI and EEG. Some of the things she said also made me question things that have happened to me in the past, for instance I have had this happen to me quite a few times, where my vision gets slightly blurred and I find it hard to focus my sight on anything, and I feel kind of spaced out like I'm a bit drunk, I feel like my tongue is too big to fit in my mouth and I can't talk properly, and then I get flushed and really hot from my stomach up to my face and down my arms and I feel extremely nauseous, sometimes actually heaving. I've never thought about this before and just not really thought anything of it as they've been so far in between that I've never connected them. Now I'm questioning everything. But also, because of what I've read online it makes me wonder whether I am actually just faking?! But why would I??? They're by no means regular at all, they seem to have jumped to a completely different representation, I've not hurt myself and because I am mostly aware during these 'episodes' (even if I'm not always for the time after) it makes me wonder how this could even be epilepsy? To be honest I feel like I'm making a big deal about nothing and that I'm a bit of a fraud, but I feel a bit emotional and a bit scared at the moment and would love to hear some of your thoughts if anyone has any x