Medication and insurance issues

My name is Roxanne and I'm very scared. I'm going through a divorce and wasn't allowed to work while he still lived with me. He recently was layed off and now I have barely no income and I NEED my anticonvulsant KEPPRA to live! Everything is in limbo. Forced to put my home up for sale bc I have no job bc of my severe depression ( not sucidal) I have bipolar depression and severe anxiety and I was seeking psychiatrist help until there was no insurance. I've contacted UCB whom manufacturers my KEPPRA (750mg/am & 750mg/pm) however I've been for past 2 weeks only taking it when I'm awake and being seizure feee in may for 21 years is what I want to accomplish. I love alone with minimal support from NOBODY, not even parents. I'm so afraid bc I've been only taking 1 dose a day to at least keep enough KEPPRA to keep me alive & being epileptic since age of 11yr old, I know better than to NOT take the 1500mg I'm ordered to take , bc of obvious consequences!! I need help bc I've noticed I've become more sick, depressed and sleep a lot. I'm very irritable and feel weak at times. I can only relate that to me decreasing my RX and I'm sad I have to do that. I'm in limbo and scared. I occasionally will have myoclonic body jerks while I'm trying to fall asleep and I'm smart enough to know it's bc of medication decrease and the extreme amount of stress and lack of sleep I end up having at times bc so much is on my plate. I am not one to complain or ask for help, but I'm at my end of rope and my family doesn't help,,, my attorney in my divorce helps a bit but he's limited bc he's my divorce attorney. I haven't seen or spoken to my stbex husband in 2 years when he served me divorce papers. I can now not receive. My KEPPRA without paying $1368.98 for a 50 day supply from RITEAID. I don't have the means to do so!!! I'm still paying bills in my home I get to live in till it's sold with my 2 dogs whom watch over me by grace of God. I also take clonozopam for RLS but it's genetic so it's only 35.00. I can afford that bc it's generic. My KEPPRA, however is not. I've been taking KEPPRA since 2006 and my former neurologist, Benjamin Smolar only had me taking BRAND NECESSARY,,, now I am to see my new neurologist, dr Tatyana Barsouk and I can't see her bc I have NO insurance. I'm so scared of what to do. I only take a shower with a chair from my kitchen bc I'm afraid of falling or getting dizzy which I tend to do lately bc of lack of meds and extreme stress. I don't drive barely at all bc of fears plus something happens behind wheel, I hurt someone or myself and I won't risk it. My dogs need me to care for them and I have to remain strong, but I'm weak now and I need some type of help. I just want my anticonvulsant.... I contacted epilepsy foundation and received numbers to call but I don't know what route to go. I never had to do this in my life. I was married in 06 and soon to be divorced after 10.5 years of marriage. He left me 2 years ago in middle of night and I have no way of contacting him unless via my attorney.... he left me on New Year's Day 15' for someone else. He forbid me to work while we were together bc he was the " man/provider" I haven't worked in 11 years and have isolated myself to my house. I have my monthly bills I pay every month that come to almost 1k a month. I cannot in no way afford health care. I try for work but I can't get it for a plethora of reasons... 1) I hv a resume that shows my last date of work being 2096... bc my stbex husband wanted me to be wife and mother. I trusted him and now with him being layed off and only getting U/C , I can barely pay bills and more importantly can't BUT MY ANTICONVULSANT!!! I was going to both a Pshycologist and psychiatrist but had to stop bc if no healthcare. So,,, so sorry for lengthy explanation but I really need HELP. I just want my anticonvulsant so can rest easier and have a little less stress and fear of having seizure in sleep. PLEASE by grace of God, please someone help me. Thank you very much. Roxanne DeMarco Varhola 10/20/77 2053 Stagecoach Dr. South Park PA 15129 412-863-0992 My monthly income may be reduced to maybe 900-1000 dollars. My stbex still has to pay mortgage till home is sold that I'm currently residing in till house sales. My email isroxannevarhola@icloud.com or roxannevarhola@yahoo.com I'm on every program to help lower my utilities of gas electricity and water and deleted my cable and I have a car pymt/ car insurance. I'm very honest and just hope there is someone out there that can help me. I need my meds and need to see my neurologist. Thank you kindly Roxanne Varhola I called the 24/7 & reaching out for help