Epilepsy and now a possible case of Cortical Dysplasia

I'm 21 years old and I've had seizures ever since I was a kid, it's been more than 9 years, I've been treated with different medications and neurologists, I was seizure free for about two years, constantly taking my medications, after that I kept having them but recently it's been worse, there was a moment in which I thought I was even going to die, I had more than 30 seizures in less than two weeks, from hospital to hospital, they gave me so many madications that I was unconcious most of the time, since they weren't able to stop my convulsions they opted for putting me to sleep, from Demerol, Balium and a lot of other medications at a time, I couldn't move, eat properly, write, or anything, it was horrible, everyone who saw me cried, yes that bad... Now a new neurologist is evaluating me, he ordered me a 24 hour EEG and a Brain MRI because he believes that I have cortical dysplasia, the pain in my head is excruciating, there are no words to describe how horrible it feels, even my mood changes.

I just want to know if there is someone with a situation like mine or at least similar, even if it's not the same, if you have any knowledge about it. I guess I am scared, scared of getting worse, even more now that I'm about to get married, scared of needing surgery because of this.....