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Someone please help.. this is hell.
Sat, 02/07/2015 - 18:59I had a seizure over a week ago by myself. It was on Jan 26th. I have been to the doctor and they don't even freaking know what to do. And this is making me so depressed that I REFUSE to live my life like this. Not only that but I have found ZERO help online or at any doctors, through information with what could be wrong.
Ever since I had the seizure (I'm guessing it was a tonic clonic since I had auras, and I was unconsious.. woke on the ground in IMMENSE pain that lingered for days). Ever since 1/26.. I've been STUCK IN THE POSTITCAL STAGE. STUCK IN THAT STAGE. I feel SLOW.. I FEEL STUPID. I DON'T THINK. And doctors don't even care.. they just think it's my MEDS.. BUT I'VE BEEN ON THE SAME MEDS for 11 YEARS and I've BEEN FINE EVER since I had that seizure.
I do stupid things.. like I just DONT THINK anymore. It's hard to read anything and understand it or absorb the information. I walked into a room a couple minutes ago and the light was broken. So instead of realizing i could turn on the LAMP.. I just tried to find my clothes in the DARK. I DO THINGS WITHOUT THINKING.
It feels like I'm in a haze and It's making me go insane.. because I KNOW THIS is not me. I can't even complete my homework for my college psychology courses because I NO LONGER UNDERSTAND IT and I no longer can FOCUS LONG ENOUGH TO EVEN READ IT!
WHEN WILL THIS STAGE GO AWAY. I want to feel normal again before I do something drastic to end this hellish nightmare
I'm on Zonegram 100mg. I
Submitted by algaeeater09@gmail.com on Sun, 2015-02-08 - 00:23
I'm on Zonegram 100mg. I take 4 pills at night. It's just weird though.. I would describe myself as a DEEEP thinker. Sometimes I'll just sit and think for hours and hours because I find it fun! Thinking of psychological things and wondering how people will react to this or that and such. I just love to think! But lately If I try to think.. literally nothing comes to mind. As I'm writing this.. everything I can think of is just based around memories and not, logical thought process.My life feels foggy.. slow, stupid, almost as if I'm not the same person anymore. I often now find myself letting my eyes unfocus about 80% of the day. My doctor said I'm having partial seizures.. which is bull shit because WHY WOULD I HAVE SEIZURES that i've NEVER had before just after I had a grand mal? AND When I unfocus my eyes.. I'm still able to think.. move.. and do everything.. it's almost as if I'm acting as if I had a lobotomy. I'm unmotivated and lazy and unable to even CARE about focusing my eyes or even listening.