So frustrated.. Need to talk to someone who can relate..

My name is Ashante, friends & fam call me Sha, I am 25 years old. I've been diagnosed with epilepsy since I was five years old, started of small with back to back petit-mals. But after my freshmen year in high school, I've had my first grand-mal tonic clonic seizure episode. That's when I started to take Lamictal, twice a day, and I would still get 2-3 seizures a month around my cycle time. For a while I've been feeling that my cycle has some kind of trigger to these seizures that have been happening to me. I've asked doctors for a higher dosage, but that didn't help me at all. I know I don't have it as bad as the others, but this has been bringing me down and I've been feeling useless to myself. I've applied for a job, which i was lucky to get, I didn't mention anything about my epilepsy cause I knew better that they wouldn't even give me the job. Because I can't drive, public transportation was my only way to get around at the time when I was living in Miami. So one day, early morning on my way to work, I was waiting on the bus and next thing I know I'm on the sidewalk with paramedics over me. Thank god someone, not knowing who because no one was at the bus stop, called 911. I fell hard on my face and knocked a tooth out, and me not having insurance, I had to tell the paramedics to not take me to the hospital, knowing the charges for an emergency room. I ended up having to leave my job because they asked me to go to a Neuro and see if I'm okay to work again, yet again not having insurance I couldn't see a Neuro. I've applied for SSI so many times in FL, now I am living in Georgia and I applied for SSI, got denied again and now waiting on a hearing for the appeal I made. I'm a young woman, who's trying so hard to become independent. It hurts me every single day that I have to depend on someone to make sure I don't fall and break my head. I stay home majority of the time because I feel like I could take my own life with just 1 fall. I am currently looking for a job that I can work at home, that way transportation won't be a problem and I won't hurt myself.. But it's not easy because of the experience that they are asking for, I don't have. Everyday I cry, not because I'm sad, but because I'm so frustrated with my epilepsy. I have tears of anger.