Should i make a move?

Hi,

I was diagnosed with epilepsy since i was 17 and has been on oral medication ever since. Medication did reduce the full blown seizure (unconscious) but i still has some episodes of partial seizures on and off (about 5 times monthly and in cluster), those with aura and last for less than 10s.

I read about surgery to remove the affected area (did all the scans and doctor is able to identify the area) but is strongly against that. I mean any kind of surgery possess some risk, needless to say when we open up the skull.

I was pretty open about my illness right up to about 23 years old. I came out of army and while looking for a job, i found out the reality. I mean i understand the concerns employer had and to be frank was pretty fine with it. Luckily one employer was kind enough to offer me an administrative temp job before i start my undergrad studies. This was when i started to "hide" my condition. I chose to hide it because i do not want people to treat me differently (in a good way, not in a bad way). I do not see myself different from my classmates and therefore i do not wish to get special treatments. Classmates and eventually colleagues asked why i was in the administrative role in the army. I did not disclose my condition and brush off with some foot injury and surgery to correct it.

I am now in my mid 30s. Friends and relatives are asking me constantly why i am not finding a partner. Well, i have this mental barrier. I know my parents are very worried about my conditions and i actually did not tell them about my partial seizures. I mean even the doctors cant do much, if i were to tell them (my parents), it will only makes them more worried. It is a blessing in disguise that my condition is sort of controlled by AED. As such, i do not want my partner to suffer the same anxiety as my parents.

Now to the main issue i wish to seek some advices. I like this colleague of mine and she broke up with her boyfriend about a year ago. We are sort of close as we hang out for meals with other ex-colleagues. She even asked if i wanted to go overseas for holiday with the group. I don't mean that all these shows that she has an interest in me. I am trying to say that at least she feels comfortable with me. Before she broke up with her boyfriend, i was telling myself i will go for her if she ever become single. But for the past 10 months, i could not find the courage to do so, mainly due to the concerns that i mentioned earlier.

Epilepsy is an illness but not a disease. Issue is that most of the public lacks the awareness or understand about the illness. I don't know if i should make my interest to her known or not. I am worried that we might not be friends if my confession to her did not turn out well. Could anyone with similar experiences share with me how you deal with this? Thank you in advance.