life sucks

you know whe your own sister gets horrified because you happen to be with people she knows and she has taken you along and she wants to crawl under a rock. no i dont drive, oh dont you know how? well yes cant for medical reasons. the one lady was a nurse and said seizures, i said yes uncontrolable, she said no proble you are in good hands, my sister and the other ladies didnt say a word and seemed to shrink in the wood work as the nurse asked me questions. she then said well there is no reason for you to worry and not join and come to the garden club meeting and field trips cuz we have quite a lot of nurses and i am at all of them just tell me what you need when certain ones happen, so we talked and she was so great. now since i am such a embarassment and the family secret is out, i guess she wont take me anywhere any more!!! well my sister hardly talked on the way home. i brought up all sorts of things like music, hates my choises, food, hates, movies, hates, etc hates. she always does this to me anything i like is no good. well i sat there thinking of the song " super freak" yeap thats me, yes the song does date mea bit too. i ended up coming home and reading that stupid report from the psyconeuro and boy that even depressed me more, why i just didnt leave it in its file where its been for 2 years is beynd me!!!! banffgirl