Terrifying experience

Hi everyone. My name is Sabrina. I'm 36 years old living with catamenial epilepsy. I had my first seizure in 2009 about a month after losing my mom. It stemmed from a brain injury when younger but they lay dormant (or so I know) for many years. I have several different types of seizures but am one of the lucky ones who has auras. However I am also what they call "a wander" and have been known to do some strange things without realizing it. I once walked into the main road next to my house with no clothes on. I fell down 18 concrete stairs and got pretty busted up. I seized in the middle of my street at about 2:00 am and cracked my skull. 13 Staples. I made it to my neighbor's somehow for help and they opened and closed the door while I was bleeding to death. Thank God my husband realized I was gone and found me unconscious in our yard trying to get back home before blacking out. My neighbors didn't even call the police! She instead stood at the back of the ambulance cussing and hollering until she was told she was about to be arrested for interfering with a medical emergency. She backed off them but took me to court and filed a restraining order against me. It was so embarrassing. She told the judge I was on drugs and all kinds of things! But I kept myself together. I have to. But yesterday, I had the most terrifying experience of my life. I was home alone cleaning and started not feeling so great. My husband went to the hospital the day before for feeling strange (unusual) so I was already on edge. I was on the phone with him and just couldn't breathe. I HAD to get outside and HAD to get on the ground... Now! I called 911 and the operator was doing a great job keeping me calm and maintain my breathing. I saw my neighbor outside (the neighbors next door to the ones I had issues with formerly) and I was screaming bloody murder that I needed his help! Paramedics were already on the way and would be there in a second) I started actually convulsing in short spurts and I've never felt that before. Generally I have blacked out by then. I've never been awake for that part. I have never ever been that terrified in my life! That man shook his head at me as if disappointed, watched me seized, and turned around and walked inside and left me there. The neighbor from my previous incident had told them I was on drugs. That's rediculous! Is anti seizure medication drugs? Who does that? The paramedics told me I was just having auras and that an aura isn't a medical emergency so while I waited for my step mom they said that they couldn't take me for that and my options were to call the police to take me out they would open my windows and put me in a chair in my driveway to wait for my step mom. I don't need police assistance. I needed MEDICAL attention. That's why they were there in the first place. So they put a chair in my driveway and left me outside. Alone. Knowing that I'm a wander and will, and have several times wandered away. He said because they didn't witness me have the seizure they couldn't take me. They had more important emergencies and had to get myself there. Luckily my step mom is close and they have her number on file to contact her for me because I was home alone. If I'm not alert enough to contact her myself should they leave me alone. I couldn't get myself there. That's why I called them! It's been rainy lately and those big ants keep making their way in my house so I put out some boric acid. I'm also a neat freak and had no kids and decided to do some cleaning this weekend. Without even thinking about it (dumb) I somehow, somewhere mixed up that bleach and boric acid. Bad mix. It looks like I made my husband and myself sick, it just hot him sooner. I feel horrible. He got sick the day before in the kitchen finishing up our dishes for me and used bleach in there. He has a heart condition so we thought it was that. Then I got seriously ill the next day while cleaning my bathroom. Gotta do that any chance you get when the kids aren't home! Lol! And I got extremely sick extremely fast! That whole experience was very traumatizing and now I think I made my husband sick as well. Such a stupid move!!!!! The paramedics asked if I had been using any chemicals other than bleach because they walked inside they said you could definitely smell the bleach. One of the firefighters saw the boric acid on my porch and asked if I had used it and I told him yeah but not too clean. That's when they realized to get the heck out of my house themselves! They opened windows for me and my step came in and wiped down with hot water and to sterilize. I'm just a wreck about the whole thing though. I feel terrible about making my husband sick. Thank God my kids weren't home. Thank God I made it outside to call for help. I'm doing my best to keep my calm but going through that will mess with your head. Has anyone else ever felt their convulsions? Does anyone else unknowingly wander around and do strange things? So sorry to ramble