i dont know what to do . .

my name is phia, i am 20 years old, but was diagnosed with epilepsy when i was 12 years old. epilepsy changed my world around. if i could tell my whole story, id be typing for hours, days, months! & i wish i was exaggerating. from having 2-3 seizures a day, i only have them every couple of months. it's been like this for about 2 years now. so, for the past few months i've been really mad and sad. ill get so angry & then start crying at random times. i didn't know what was wrong with me, i still dont know what's wrong with me. these past few weeks have been at it's worse. i hate that im hurting my parents by not wanting to be with them, i hate the fact that i hate being home. i cant stand being home. i feel so trapped when im home. i have these mental breakdowns when im alone at home. so i decided to get an apartment & well, that failed. my parents flipped a switch & when i told them why i desperately wanted to leave the house. . they cried & i wanted to die. i hate the fact that i hate being in my home that i grew up in. a home my parents worked very hard for. they ask me what can we do to "fix" the situation, & i told them maybe boxing or something to let out my anger. (i dont know..) so yesterday my mom had mentioned that i might have PTSD. post-traumatic stress disorder. she explained to me, that maybe somewhere in the back of my mind when im in my house & i see something that reminds me of a really ad seizure i've had, or even a little seizure that ruined a night of me going out with the few friends i had, (i was bullied because of my epilepsy) so when i see that one something, it triggers me & that's what makes me so angry & makes me cry & makes me hate being home. i thought i was just going back into depression, but now this whole PTSD thing is making sense to me. i wish i could word this better. im not too good at this, this is my first time on here.. i dont know what to do. i hate this feeling so much & i just dont want to be here anymore.