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Hard life depression
Mon, 11/27/2017 - 12:10Topic: Share Your Story
Hello friends. My name is Tyler Im 25 and I am from Hot Springs Arkansas. I just wanted to let out some of my personal events and vent a little due to some depression issues. I have had epilepsy since I was 12. The first seizure I had, me and a cousin were alone and I somehow grinded my front teeth out. I have had two seizures while driving and one was on the interstate going 65 mph. I had one in the shower fell and split my head on the toilet. I had 6 in one day and was hospitalized to get them to stop which left partial seizures happening all the time after. Three have happened at work while standing up and it hurt. My least favorite, I had one at the end of a night class at college while standing up and fell and broke out three teeth on a tile floor. My teacher took me to the hospital and stayed till my family got there. That was the most embarrassing seeing how I wet my pants. I am just depressed now. I am always afraid it will happen around my girlfriend or while driving again. I have just felt alone through this, but I know I haven't been.
However, even after all of the incidents, I still graduated with two degrees and started grad school. But I still have not found a decent job even after a degree. Should I go out of my way to hide this? It is like I am always looking over my soldier waiting for another one. I work three jobs, go to school, and stay stressed out. I love my girlfriend more than life itself, but i feel uncomfortable with her seeing a partial seizure and getting scared when i am just unresponsive. Should I feel so sad and worried all of the time? To me, its more just embarrassing than painful, no matter how many surgeries you undergo. Thanks for listening.
Comments
Hi Tyler, I am new to this
Submitted by NicholeMarie07 on Thu, 2017-11-30 - 21:54
Hi Tyler, I am new to this but I completely understand what you are saying about depression and being worried about what others think. I just had my first grand mal seizure this past Saturday, luckily I was in bed when it happened but was quite embarrassing coming to, sitting at the edge of the bed with my parents, niece and first responders staring at me. My husband was not there and did not witness the seizure. I am now worried about where and when another one will happen or if I'll never have another one. I hope to find out why this has happened and am afraid I won't get the answers I'm looking for. I am quite emotional this whole week and feel exhausted after the seizure and I do not feel like myself. I go in on Monday to see a neurologist about my EEG results. I had started with partial seizures last year in May but I did not realize they were seizures until this recent grand mal. If you ever need someone to talk to please feel free to message me or add me on Facebook.
Hi Tyler! The depression and
Submitted by Elizabeth.Neave on Thu, 2017-12-07 - 15:18
Hi Tyler! The depression and embarrassment is understandable... I've been there and it is difficult. I personally have only had one seizure (as far as I know) and had the misfortune of having the episode in front of a bunch of people. I was 13 almost 14 at the time. I'm sorry that you are having trouble right now. I found that sitting down and having one on one conversations with friends and family really helped me, and it makes me feel a lot better knowing that they know about it. Talking isn't always that easy -- I still can't talk without tearing up/ feeling anxious, but I know it's for the best. It's definitely worth a try. As hard as it is not to feel worried and sad, it won't improve the quality of life. Try something that will help take your mind off your worries, like a new hobby, reading, athletics,etc. Please feel free to respond to this message! Hope you doing ok! -Elizabeth
In many seizures you lose
Submitted by just_joe on Thu, 2017-11-30 - 13:51
In many seizures you lose control of your body movements and yes control of your bladder. It has happened to me and I look at it using mind over matter. I don't mind since I was in a seizure. So it don't matter what people think since they do not know what happened. Tell that to a police officer. They start questioning themselves and tend to think more about whether to pick you up or find a way to get you home safely. I worked a 40 hr job and went to night school nd did well. Things aren't east but people can make them work. I had several types of different seizures and when riding the bus you do get looked at. I generally knew a few of the people on the rail and busses and they knew about my epilepsy so they also talked to the cops and EMT's