depressed mom

hi there, i,ve been away for quite sometime coz of my son's worsening situation. Im really so stressed up. my son's doctor tells me he'll be ok but i think this is just a lie to make me feel better. I had to stop being employed by anyone coz i used to take offs every week coz my son is sick.So i just stay at home with him coz no employer wants an employee who is inconsistence. That's waht my last empoyer told me. Once he starts having seizures it never stops until they inject him and the medication on a weekly basis is so expensive. It really puts me down financially and emotionally. Seizures every week is just too much, what advice do u give? On saturday i took him to the hospital and the doctor adviced me that he should undergo a surgery to remove is tonsils, coz he gets multiple infections every week and this makes him have the fits. Im always scared coz i never know when he'll have them. He has a speech problem, so his doctor adviced me to take him to school coz this might help his speech. i just pray that this works coz even when he is in school im still not settled. though his doctor insists that its for his own good. How good is the epilim syrup? He started taking it two months ago but there is no significant changes. sometimes he can have 20 fits that follow each other even after injection. i really feel for him and i pray one day he'll have a normal life free of convulsions. I just need some kind words to make me feel better.