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Epilepsy/Meds are Ruining my LIFE!!!!

Mon, 03/16/2009 - 21:21
Hi, I am 20 years old and I have had epilepsy for the last 4 1/2 years. I just got an MRI and my brain scans are off the chart. Apparently I am having mini-seizures in my brain. The most recent drug that I was on was Topomax. This drug literally made me stupid!. I couldn't concentrate, I couldn't speak correctly, etc....it was terrible....Now I am switching to Keppra, because Topomax wasn't controlling my seizures fully. BUT! Keppra is making me tired. I have no energy. I am a 20 year old college student. I need all the energy I have. At this rate I am going to fail out of school because of what these drugs are doing to me. I made it through freshman year because my classes where easy, but sophmore year is just too hard, with all this medical BULLSHIT! My doctor says that my concentration issues could be a result of my mini seizures in my brain. I'm considering taking a leave from college so I can get my health together, but they say that finding the right meds for you is a trial and error process that could take "awhile". I'm dying here. It sucks when you look in the mirror and you see your potential, but are not able to live it because of these god damn meds. Can anyone relate to this??????? It's driving me crazy. (btw I have had 4 seizures in my life. 2 in highschool and 2 in college) Also, the worst part about this is my parents just think I'm being lazy and I am not "trying hard enough".....Most of the time Ill be thinking one thing, but not be able to fluently vocally express it, because I'm so doped out on these psycoactive drugs. Can anyone relate here. I'm really downward spiraling.

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Re: Epilepsy/Meds are Ruining my LIFE!!!!

Submitted by rikk on Tue, 2009-03-17 - 04:02

yes i know where you are at.  that is from my view.  there is no way to find the right drug, other than trial and error.  the different types of seizures and different types of body responses  letting the meds take some time to see if they are going to work.  some of the side effects go away.  your brain can adapt.  it may take several tries.  i know that i am a little dew drop from heaven.  what you are experiencing is just what the doc is telling you.  there is really no such thing as a mini seizure.  the activity is seen, and, abnormal, and has changes in the way pattern.  the outside signs may not be there , but the inside is.    You have had more than 4 seizures.

as far as parents are concerned,  if they wish they may contact me direct, useing my e-mail address.  ish4031eagle@aol.com.  i can give them information and answer questions, that they may not know the answers to.  some times when it comes to something like this.  the words from someone else drip from the lips of God.  That is what my wife tells me, when we don't see eye to eye.  You may have to with draw from your class.  What i found helpful was several methods of information exposeure and several times.  the more links in the brain to the information the more likely you are to remember.

thought and speech issues.  slow down and let the thought form.  you may have to start out repeating the thought in you head a couple of times before you speak.

i have had seizures for 48 years.  every type in the books and a few other.  I went to college and have a degree in science.  i found a drug that allowed me some success.  i still have 20 seizures a month.  I also have a vns implant.  that's my thoughs.   I hopeit helps.  rikk

 

yes i know where you are at.  that is from my view.  there is no way to find the right drug, other than trial and error.  the different types of seizures and different types of body responses  letting the meds take some time to see if they are going to work.  some of the side effects go away.  your brain can adapt.  it may take several tries.  i know that i am a little dew drop from heaven.  what you are experiencing is just what the doc is telling you.  there is really no such thing as a mini seizure.  the activity is seen, and, abnormal, and has changes in the way pattern.  the outside signs may not be there , but the inside is.    You have had more than 4 seizures.

as far as parents are concerned,  if they wish they may contact me direct, useing my e-mail address.  ish4031eagle@aol.com.  i can give them information and answer questions, that they may not know the answers to.  some times when it comes to something like this.  the words from someone else drip from the lips of God.  That is what my wife tells me, when we don't see eye to eye.  You may have to with draw from your class.  What i found helpful was several methods of information exposeure and several times.  the more links in the brain to the information the more likely you are to remember.

thought and speech issues.  slow down and let the thought form.  you may have to start out repeating the thought in you head a couple of times before you speak.

i have had seizures for 48 years.  every type in the books and a few other.  I went to college and have a degree in science.  i found a drug that allowed me some success.  i still have 20 seizures a month.  I also have a vns implant.  that's my thoughs.   I hopeit helps.  rikk

 

Re: Epilepsy/Meds are Ruining my LIFE!!!!

Submitted by dainty on Tue, 2009-03-17 - 10:04

Hugs and hang in there*** Both my kids genetic epileptics and its not easy but it is doable.  The hardest part is getting the meds right.  The keppra kicking your butt right now.  My daughter as well.  I'm told it will pass once you are used to it in a few months. If not, maybe its not the right med for you. I also know good sleep habits a MUST... no and, ifs, or buts about it.  You must sleep well to preform well.  Your diet must be healthy.  No diet soda, junk foods, and missing meals.  All that adds to more issues you don't need.  You must exercise or get out every day.  Yoga, mediation, something to relieve stress. None of these will cure it but they should help you alittle bit. 

I wish you well and we are all here for you.  Also look into a 504 Plan for College.  My son has very high intelligence and yet he has one t help him.

 Be well and good luck

joan*

 

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/JuvenileMyoclonicEpilepsy/

Son lamictal 175 2x 19 Grand Mals - Stable Daughter keppra 750 16 Juvenile myclonic - Not stable yet Both had first issues at 15 - Both JME - gotta love puberty : ) * Both dealing with

Hugs and hang in there*** Both my kids genetic epileptics and its not easy but it is doable.  The hardest part is getting the meds right.  The keppra kicking your butt right now.  My daughter as well.  I'm told it will pass once you are used to it in a few months. If not, maybe its not the right med for you. I also know good sleep habits a MUST... no and, ifs, or buts about it.  You must sleep well to preform well.  Your diet must be healthy.  No diet soda, junk foods, and missing meals.  All that adds to more issues you don't need.  You must exercise or get out every day.  Yoga, mediation, something to relieve stress. None of these will cure it but they should help you alittle bit. 

I wish you well and we are all here for you.  Also look into a 504 Plan for College.  My son has very high intelligence and yet he has one t help him.

 Be well and good luck

joan*

 

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/JuvenileMyoclonicEpilepsy/

Son lamictal 175 2x 19 Grand Mals - Stable Daughter keppra 750 16 Juvenile myclonic - Not stable yet Both had first issues at 15 - Both JME - gotta love puberty : ) * Both dealing with

Re: Epilepsy/Meds are Ruining my LIFE!!!!

Submitted by ajg14 on Sun, 2009-06-28 - 01:52
I know exactly how you feel.  I was just diagnosed 7 weeks ago.  I am a 27 y/o who graduated with my Master's degree a few months ago and I don't even know how you are able to consentrate or function.  the fact that you are so determined is so encouraging to me.  I was offered a job ( a really great job!) which I accepted, but after my first seizure I have not been able to go back to work (medication adjustment and the med-keppra is just not working).  There's no way I could work when I feel this out of it and tired. I send you my support while trying to get though college while dealing with this. I remind myself every day that I am so fourtunate that my first seizure came a few weeks after I graduated, otherwise I KNOW I would have had to taken a leave of absence.  If that is the route that you're considering, bear in mind that I am going through the same thing with my job right now...should I just tell them to hire someone that can actually come to work and do the job or ask them to please wait for me while I 'adjust' to this new diagnosis and medicine.  I'm struggling so much with the decision.  Before all this happened I viewed myself as intelligent, sharp and happy.  I graduated at the top of my class.  Now, almost 2 months later, I don;t even feel like the same person.  I'm struggling with balance, forming sentences and still having violoent twitching every day (I have partial-onset simple seizures).  I seems like I am not the same person when I look in the mirror and it makes me feel like I'm losing the person I once was.  However, I have to believe that I will eventually get back that to that person, and I encourage you to keep a daily journal of how you feel to see the small improvements that you may otherwise miss.  This and this alone has been what's reminded me that i am, in fact getting better...just REALLY slowly.  I hope this helped, i will be interested in seeing what you decide, as I will be making a similiar deciosn myself. Good luck!!

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