Was expecting after all :*(

Hi everyone, as most of you know we were trying to conceive via IUI and my progesterone levels were low. Saturday I started my period and all day at work I cramped so bad and bled frofusely, I also passed several small clots through out the day. I spoke with my RE that night and after our conversation ended I got in the shower, blood was just dripping to the shower floor and I began to cramp again, to get relief I pushed a little and I passed what I thought at the time was just another clot. This one was much larger than the other ones, it was about the size of a bottel top. I spoke to my RE nurse Monday and discussed with her what had happened, she belives I was in the early stages of pregnancy when I miscarried our baby. WHAT!! I was and still am in shock. I immediately felt awful for ever having referred to our baby as a "clot." No wonder my levels were low, the embryo attached too late to my endometrium and miscarriage was the result. My mother miscarried her first baby, God love her. We still haven't told anyone. I feel so terrible, my poor baby. The good thing is we can still have children and my Phenobarbital was not a factor. Thank goodness. Even though our baby was still in its embryonic stage, we believe our daughter or son had a soul and is in Heaven. This hasn't dicouraged us from trying IUI again, we are just praying that the good Lord will allow us to keep the next child He blesses us with. I know He only takes the best. Vanessa