my take on it

I found out I an unknown condition after waking up from a month long coma a little over a year ago. At that point every thing in my life changed. I had to move to a different city and give up a job contract in a different country. The worse part of all this was the fact I was missing more than two years of memory. I had to fight for every memory, this is a common thing for people in my condition. As the days past I learned more or more what had been taken from me. Every certification I had earned, lots of special qualifications, even my race License. The first month I figured this was a temporary thing, you never hear about it, and my local library didn’t have much information. So how bad could it be really. But my opinion changed and it quickly because apparently I may be dealing with this for the long term after I racked up my 22nd trip to the emergency room. Honestly I have been enough times to lose count.

I have learned to accept it to a degree, and it amuses me when people tell me thy couldn’t deal with the things I have dealt with. Most of my life when I have done stuff I have had people tell me that’s impossible. They were wrong thing, so I have no reason to believe them when they tell me I am going to fail like every where one now.  I don’t listen to people when they tell me I can’t do something because they couldn’t do it. I know the first step of any trip is mental. Before this started I had completed a 660 mile bicycle trip, made the back pack I wear every day, and had several pictures published. I plan on getting my life back to something like it was before I started having seizures daily. Yes I am marked up from having seizures while riding my bicycle, but I still didn’t give it up. So this makes me a freak. I will take it and enjoy it compared to someone who gives up like every one else and follows the crowd any day.