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So scared that I might have epilepsy?

Thu, 01/08/2015 - 20:08

So about 2 months ago, I had what I think was a seizure. I ate some shrooms that my friend got, but it was only about 2g's and it was all dust because it was the bottom of the sack. Anyways, I've taken shrooms and acid before and it didn't seem to be kicking in really, so I started drinking a lot of orange juice (it supposedly makes you trip more). But I became very anxious and I remember messing with a cigarette roller because I couldn't concentrate on anything. Shrooms made me very anti-social both times I took them. There were also quite a few people and I felt like there were more people there.

I went to urgent care about 2 weeks after it happened, and they tried to reasure me I was going to be ok and that it probably was a panic attack instead, but they couldn't tell for sure because I wasn't having one if the doctors office. I felt relieved a little bit but I have had severe anxiety, especially when I tell myself there is a chance it was a seizure because they're unpredictable and that scares me a lot.

Now I'll tell you what happened that night. So I ate the shrooms, drank a lot of oj, and then I was smoking a cigarette and I noticed I felt very different. I also had an intense pain in my right side after I ate them. I put my cigarette out and almost instantly had a huge headrush and blacked out. I woke up on the floor and apparently I was just sitting there and flew backwards and start convulsing on the ground. When I woke up, I was very confused and everyone was around me so I got up and ran to the couch and then I started freaking out and went into a bad trip. I thought that I was going to die, and I mean I really felt like it was going to happen. I couldn't believe that something like that happened to me, I've never had a bad trip like that. For the rest of the night I just lyed on the couch afraid to move because whenever I wasn't lying on my back, I felt like something bad was going to happen and felt like whatever happened might happen again.

Everything since that night has been horrible for me. Whenever I smoke weed now, I almost always have a panic attack or I feel panic. And in the past week whenever I smoked a little to much, I felt the headrush I felt that night for only a split second and then I got cold chills and felt depressed because I don't want to ever experience that again. Weed has always helped me feel better before this happened, but now it makes me feel very anxious like I'm waiting for something to happen. Even when I'm sober, I just feel very uneasy and I feel like something is going to happen to me at any point in time and I hate it, because it's the only thing I can think about.

I'm only 18, and I don't want to live the rest of my life having seizures and feeling like something is going to happen to me every second of every day. I went to my gp today and told him everything, and he thinks I did have a seizure and that it might be from withdrawl because I do drugs. He didn't want to prescribe me anything, so he referred me to this one place that I'm suppose to go talk to someone up there and talk it out with them because they are suppose to know all about drugs and that they will help find the best route for me to take.

Is it possible to feel this way and not have recurring seizures? Because I'd rather be on no medicine, but if I have to and it helps, then I'll do anything to not have them anymore. All I want is to find peace with this situation, but it scares me so much. I just want to be happy. Im sorry this is long, but I wanted to describe everything.

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