Hi everyone. I’m new here. I’ve had epilepsy for almost 25 years now and I’ve never talked to anyone who has been awake for a grand mal seizure before. My seizures are controlled by Lamictal and Depakote. My most recent seizure was probably about 7 years or so ago. All my seizures up until the last 2 I had, I was completely conscious through. As I’m sure you can imagine, it’s horrible to say the least. Has anyone ever experienced the same thing? And if so, do you know the reason or is it in a certain part of the brain that would make that happen. I just don’t understand why for 20 years every time I had one I was conscious through, except for the last couple. I woke up and the people I was with told me I had had a seizure. Luckily my medication has been working. Thank the lord for modern medicine!!