Hi, my name is diana. I was diagnosed with focal or partial seizure this July. I am 24 years old. I'm new to all this. So my question is, i feel as the medication has worsen my condition before I have taken my meds, is that normal? I am on lamotrigine. And another question, so I am confused with focal seizure and auras. I experience, weakness where my head gets heavy and I have no control, I breathe hard, my hand taps, I cough, and I space out non responsive but aware is that a focal seizure or auras or not related. I am confused. I currently experienced a spell that lasted more than an hour. My body got weak. I was non responsive but aware. I would randomly open my eyes and stare and go back to closing my eyes. At times I had a hard time opening them. Once I could move again not being were and open my eyes with control. The last thing throughout this spell I couldn't talk my mouth was it was shut and heavy couldn't talk but nod my head. Was this a sezuire or not related. As a student that is studying to be a counselor but new to this condition as there is little research. I wonder if it consciously I do it or it is the condition of that makes sense. As if my mind is playing tricks. I am sorry if I offend anyone I new to this and so many questions. And lastly, i noticed I have difficulty put my thoughts or words together is that normal or has nothing to do I am bilingual. I occasional had that problem but it has been reoccurring more. I don't know maybe I am overthinking it. And lastly I promise, on my MRI it showed that I had this condition since birth.