I just had my very first bad seizure (grand mal) after roughly 7 years of absence seizures. I never told anyone about these because I thought they would judge me too harshly and I would be alone for the rest of my life. It happened in a mall and in front of my boyfriend no less. I woke up in his lap with the paramedics over me asking questions. They took me to the ER where I had another one in front of my whole family and boyfriend. I'm so scared at what he thinks and that if my seizures will stay grand mal. I'm just scared to go out in public, be around my boyfriend, go to work, and go to school in the fall due to fear of having a grand mal in public again; goodness it was so embarressing. Can anyone help me settle these fears of mine and if anyone else has these fears, please let me know because I feel like I'm the only one.