I’m a senior in high school, I’ve always had great friends. I went through my share of people before I found the right group for me and found MY best friend. Everything was super great I’ve been seizure free since 2017 ( was diagnosed with epilepsy when I was three in 2004 & only had 5 seizures while taking Valproic Acid ) and wasn’t on any medication because my neurologist said I outgrew my epilepsy! Then randomly when I got the flu I had my first ever grand mal seizure junior year around Christmas time. My friends were SUPER supportive and genuinely the greatest to help me cope with the situation of me going to have to go back onto my medication. After that seizure I started taking Keppra and I noticed my mood swings and depressing thoughts when before this medication I was a bundle of sunshine. Literally that’s how people referred to me as! But I dealt with my changes.
Just recently 2018 I started having regular seizures, all grand mal I am at the point of having a couple a day. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever dealt with in my life. My friends told me I was a hassle to put up with and I have seizures too much to actually be social or fun anymore... they all left me. I still have my boyfriend and he’s been great, me and him have been dating for a year and 3 months as of right now. He helps me so much and stays home from school sometimes to watch me when my parents can’t. I feel useless though, since I’ve lost my license. I’ve lost everything basically. I can’t stand my life I feel so stupid & I hate seizures from taking away my senior year of high school from me and all the great experiences that come with it. I was offered a great scholarship to Keuka College in the fall of 2019 and study international business as I’ve always wanted to do. But it seems so far out of reach.