2 years ago towards the end of January I was in a car accident with my two kids, both at the time were 5 and 14. We hit Head on and I hit my head on the steering wheel and passed out, I was sent to the hospital after the accident because my chest was hurting and my blood pressure spiked. I was sent home a few hours later and the next day we were all sore.
Towards the end of May we are all still recovering, and I started to have outbursts of anger and personality changes. I am normally a very laid back person who can deal with anything but now I would get very angry and aggressive and there were days at a time where I would forget where I was or forget days in general. I had my first seizure then and now I have them constantly.
I can have about 30 a month and sometimes 5 times a day. I have figured out they usually are triggered by high stress, lack of sleep, or when something over stimulates me.
Additionally for about 6 months when the seizures first started I was in and out of hospitals and I don't even remember me being in the hospital. Some of them were long visits like a day or two and they all have me take the same medication and that would knock me out for days at a time. Because medication didn't work I was left to fend for myself and my family helped the best they could but they only understand so much. I need a service dog to alert my seizures now because I have fallen on numerous occasions and I am afraid to go places on my own for fear I may fall in public. Some days I don't even feel like getting out of bed in the morning and I feel really depressed. I used to love doing things with my family and now I can't even feel like a person.
I want to live my life as I used to but at this point it seems impossible and I don't know what to do. I found that Seizure Alert dogs could help me getting back to normalcy but their expense at least 10,000 dollars and now I can't express the kind of sadness I feel. My family tried to help but they only do so much to help.
This has not only affected myself but my entire family, I feel embarrassed that I have to rely on my family so much and I don't want to burden them, I know things have changed but I don't want them to think of me as an invalid. I want my husband to see me like he did before not as someone who he has to look after every 5 minutes and watch me drool.
I am in need of any advice and any help groups you have.