My Life With Epilepsy or Should I Say No Life?

Re: My Life With Epilepsy or Should I Say No Life?g

Submitted by 3Hours2Live on Sat, 2010-11-27 - 19:32

Hi Zealot, I can't tell if my comment posted at http://psychout.typepad.com/blog/2010/11/www_omy_state_ny_us_new_york_office_of_mental_health_mind_jewish_epileptic_zealot_lunatic_homeless_family_federation_service.html , so I'll post here too. I've been down with a severe migraine the last few days. Trying to read a few website postings at times is about all I've accomplished. My Keppra refill was made without any problems at the drugstore, and the pharmacist's staff displayed friendliness. The five mile walk in cold weather was the biggest challenge this time, and as I was recovering back home, my migraines decided to return with a vengeance.The statistical history of my migraines points more to just coincidence than anything else, so while that will protect me from unwanted opportunistic rattlesnakes, it also provides an excuse for all the would-be wonderful Mother Teresas' to look the other way. The social workers there in New Jersey sound the case. In High School, my Vice-Principal utilized much the same Machiavellian strategy with my first complaints that my teacher raped me. It is as if he knowingly aggravated discord in my family, while evading any hint of the truth at issue. He didn't try to protect much else than the School's image, and I was left with the only recourse of avoiding my teacher whenever there might not be other remaining protecting witnesses between us. Epilepsy undermined the official rattlesnake's strategy though, with my teacher succumbing to his temptation again, at the opportunity of my seizure in class, but then with an otherwise disoccupied classroom full of witnesses available to be confronted, and a sudden exponential growth of gossip to the event, though the official record remains pristine, subject to Catch-22. Here in California, with expensive impairments and near poverty, the official strategy game seems to be, firstly, Medicare versus Medicaid. The magic Medicaid flip-flop age of 55 years, removing the future estate from protection of medical creditors' and the State's carnivorous appetites for any meat left on estate bones, often makes Medicaid more attractive than Medicare, which instills fear in family members more worried about their own future pickings. "Spend-Down" requirements for Medicare to the dreaded magic of Medicaid, does little more than increase expenses and technical accounting hassles for medical care with expensive impairments while being near poverty. The Arnold even made a short unsuccessful attempt to revitalize the old common-laws of even any distant relatives bearing the expense of mandated social and medical care at any age, though Medicaid recovery after-55 taking precedence over Deeds of Joint Tenancy and all such legal ilk, and realms of inheritances and all transfer rights, still stands. With the threat of the Medicaid beast, my direct family wants me to plead with Uncle Godbucks, while Uncle Godbucks curses socialized anything (except when it gives his own luxury means of actualization), and he doesn't want to taint my Medicaid with his money, I can't resist the urge to stick pins in his Ayn Rand philosophy at any opportunity, though the threat of myself writing his Gospel is more and more imminent with the threat of the reaper. (Poor Uncle Godbucks, the rest of the family members offer at best an artless brown nose biography. Maybe Morris is available for Reaganesque cash payment, to invent better, and Rand's "objectivism" affirming (what a travesty of the word "objective"), characters in my uncle's official stenchless "truth" biography). Each state has its own set of bizarre Medicare becoming Medicaid becoming an estate lien, set of rules, subject to Federal requirements/guidelines, and many complex state court cases involving distant financial issues. So far, the individual person still has the choice of which state to attempt residency in, but carrying out such right is being affronted by rich technicalities, including ID, and again, address of residence, and mailing addresses. With my seizures stopping an/or causing arrhythmia, cardiac and respiratory arrest with diazepam for bouts of clusters most like status epilepticus, has discouraged me from trying any benzodiazepines (along with their addictive potential). I sometimes wondered about Dilantin adding to arrhythmia problems too. Just a few more days, and the sunsets will start getting later again!!! Lots of Love, Tadzio