I need some clarity, opinions, education, from people on this site that
are living with epilepsy or have some sort of education with this.
I am 29 years old and have been diagnosed with epilepsy for 3 years. Here is a brief summary of my diagnoses....

3 years ago I had a grand mal seizure, in front of my girlfriend. Before the siezure, that day, I had put this day as the most stressful day of my life. Basically; sleep deprivation, alcoholic bender hang over, and MAJOR stress, all combined in a cross road at once. Then I had an aura and a seizure. Did my body say enough or did a noticable seizure finally make it's way through? Previous to this I may have had another sezuire by myself, in my hotel room , while on vacation. At the time, doctor in that country said he seen people pass out do to heat and alcohol. I was hung over. I did have an "aura" before it, but was I light headed or seizuring. Also, before the grand mal seizure, that month, i had several aura's that i didn't know what was happenning to me because I had never had one, but again, after drinking, hung over and stressed. There is a pretty clear similarity in all of these: I partied too much(but not a drug user, just alcohol), stressed too much, and didn't get enough sleep. The doctor said that this diagnosis can happen later in life, like this, and I may have never noticed it, if I hadden't put my body through the ringer to get to that point. I have never had a seizure since my grand mal, except for my E.E.G. right after the grand mal, my brain had seizure activity in my scan.  Other scans showed that I have a small area of grey matter in my left lobe? The nuerologist was pretty lame. My scan had activity, my scan had grey matter, I am an epileptic. I need drugs. I tried several different meds, had allergic reactions, now on lamictol, used it for several years now, but i have honestly been real bad with my med use lately and basically been off the drug for several months. No aura's, no siezure's, stress from time to time, no alcohol. Am I a ticking time bomb or a guy who just needs to take it easy and respect his body? I have started my meds again, just in case, also for driving, because I don't need any hassle from doctors or insurance. I never really talked about this or asked many questions, I just dealt with it and kept living, but now I guess I need something. I don't need comments on my choices in life, I need some clarity, opinions, education, from people on this site that are living with epilepsy or have some sort of education with this.