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sophia hill's poem...."I HAVE EPILEPSY!!!"

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I have epilepsy, what does
that mean?


Does it mean I’m a retard;
a spastic?

Does it mean it come and
goes as it pleases?

Fucking twitches
man...OMG...


I’m scared... what will
the future hold for me?


When will I have a say on
what happens to mybody…will I ever have a say?


It’s never ending. When
will it stop?


What’s it like to be
normal?


I have never experienced
normality,


I have Autism and A.D.H.D
too.


Please step into my shoes
just for one day.


And then I can step into
yours,


Just to see what it’s like
to feel normal.


What’s the definition of
normal?


Is there such a thing a
being "normal"?


I feel pissed and drunk
half the time.


I’m above cloud nine...
more like cloud


High.... high above the
Ozone


Layer heading in to space.


Apparently I’m category
*A.*


Patient according to the
hospital,


What does that mean?


What’s the meaning of “living
the high life”, when life Hits you in the brain 10 or more times a day?


I will never be able to
drive or go to a night club.


I’m 18 this year...


I will never be able to
drink,


But I am determined to
move out


And live in a place of my
own.


I can never have caffeine
as it


Brings on a 60 or more
seizure in


One day and I will have 35
of these bastard Things;


All in the space of half
en hour


And it can put me into a
coma and then might decide to kill me.


Wow... it so hot...is it
just me or is it really hot in here….?? .. Fuck I’m going to have a seizure; it’s not a
"fit" but a Mexican wave in my brain.

It’s bloody Russian
roulette honestly...go on… spin around a thousand times… in the dark and then
pull the trigger and see if it hits me.... nope not yet... GO on do it again...I
dare you!?!?... ARHH.... you got me…. I’m falling...boom!!!...O SHIT… I CAN'T
SPEAK...I CAN'T BREATH....I'M GOING BLUE... I NE..I NEE.. I… NEED...DI..DI..DI..DIA...DIA...Z.E...PA...PA...PAM...!!

QUICK... HURRY.... TRY NOT
TO WORRY IF I SHAKE AND BLEED FROM MY MOUTH… BY THE TIME YOU GET BACK FROM
CALLING THE AMBULANCE!!!


It just means I am having
a Grand-mal.

Epilepsy is not a disease But
a condition.

Yes…..

...I admit and accept that I
have epilepsy;


And yes all of us that
have it, have a silent ticking time bomb in our heads.

SO… I will shout out to
the world that I do exist … WE exist... please don't burn me or my fellow
friends at the stake like our ancestor's did, or punish us because we are
different, let me be…let US be. HELP me and the others to find a cure for this
condition; as its not contagious or a disease... it just means there is two
parts of me...one is hidden and only comes out to embarrass me and makes me and
my friends feel like a freak show.

I have epilepsy!!!!

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Re: sophia hill's poem...."I HAVE EPILEPSY!!!"

That was so good ..it was from the heart and u know what I cried while I read it and it made me feel good cuz I needed it.. :)