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Coping with Complex Partial Seizures(CPS)

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I was diagnosed on my 14th birthday. My birthday was last Friday, August 29th. I was diagnosed with Complex Partial Seizures. Being diagnosed scares me to death. I have been having seizures weekly for the past 6 months. I stare off into space, have small hand twitches, and I'm silent. They are becoming longer as time passes. I have had eeg's, MRI's and exams and every time the results said I was good. After waiting to see the neurologist for 4 months, I was hoping to hear the same thing, I'm good and healthy, but instead I heard, you have complex partial seizures. Hearing those fives small words killed me inside and In the past 4 days, I have probably cried 20 times. I don't understand why. I ask myself why me, but others around me tell me to ask myself, why not me. I don't know what to do. My family (grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins) don't know what to say and many of them ask dumb questions like "is it scary", "what's it feel like", "what about driving", and "can you still babysit". Like really, how am i suppose to answer them. Of course it's scary, it feels crappy and bad, yes I can't drive, and if you trust me with your kids still, sure.