I get bouts of depression from time to time.  I also have tinitis as well on my right side of my head.

I always have the high pitch ringing noise.  I have had seizures since I was 5.  I am now an adult.   

I do not know of any new particular way to stop the ringing on the right side of my head and I 

never know when I am going to get depressed.  

Someone please talk to me, tell me if they have gone thru this and how to deal with this 

I just had my second tonic clonic seizure. First 1 was in '05-couldn't find the cause. Tests were all normal. Then I had one last Saturday while in the passenger seat picking up my fiance's father. It lasted 8 min.s Like before I came out not knowing who I was, who anyone was, couldn't talk. And it took me a while to come to. I was embarassed and sad. And now I seem to be in such a horrible depression, not able to sleep, no energy, panic attacks. I have a 3 month old and all I think about it her. What if I was driving, I would have killed my babygirl. Now I won't take her for a walk, I'm scared to have another one if I'm walked alone with her. I won't bath her or take her in out inground pool. Even when I get my license back I don't think I will ever be able to drive with her in the car. I'm already terrified for the future.

I was supposed to go back to work after brennan's family left, but now I can't because no license, and he doesn't want to have t o wake her up at midnight to pick me up when he has to be up at 5:30 am anyways. His family is in and he's never home and I'm so paranoid I make him drop me off at my parents till he's done golfing or fishing just so I'm not home alone and have another one. I used to get partial seizures after my first one and now I'm nervous that I will get more. I have been so depressed, not wanting to be bothered by anyone, and yet not wanting to be left alone and just wanting to bbe held (I feel like I'm losing my mind). I have been so rude to my fiance' because he just doesn't understand what I'm going thru. I still don't feel right. Didn't remember anything I did for like 3 days after the seizure and now I still feel in a god. I'm slow to think, I just don't feel like my  mind is all there.

  I thought people got back to normal within 24 hours of a seizure and it's been a week. I used to suffer from depression and anxiety, but since my miracle little Hailey has come into the world I have been the most happy mother on the planet. I was on a high from the joy of motherhood. And now I feel just like this seizure has taken everything from me. My chance for going back to work and finishing my 5 classes for my degree in Medical Laboratory Technology/Histology/and Biotechnology is shot since classes are 2 hours away in Maryland. Has anyone ever gone thru these feelings of just worthlessness and just like there is nothing to look forward in the future when it comes to making something of your life and feeling safe alone with your child. I have no idea how long my license is gone for so I have to rely completely on Brennan for everything. Rides, picking up my necessities, bathing the baby, taking me to my parents so I'm not alone in case of another one. I'm only 24 and this seizure is making me feel like my life is over in many aspects.

I was in such a bad mood last night I packed all my clothes and stuff to move home basically over a petty little fight with Brennan, beause I just feel like he doesn't care. And deep down I feel he resents me because he has to take care of me and do everything for me. They put me on clonopin, but I can't take it because if he finds out he would leave me and take myu child from me (years ago-around the time of the seizure, I had an addiction to benzo.s and almost ruined my life)(I actually think I had the seizure because I quit xanax cold turkey for a week,, then I ended up getting back on them because of how upset I was). I know I'm kind of scattered in this, but that is how I have been. My memory is shot, I'm so slow to answer questions. Someone please help me and tell me if this is normal, if anyone has gone thru this, and give me any words of advice.

Hi Kat,

I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, so in the past I've gotten straight depression, but luckily (or maybe unluckily depending on how you look at it) I tend to run more manic. Especially since I've started lamictal for my seizures. Kinda sucks because they can't control one without controlling the other, throw in migraines and voila! We have a messed up Gina. But wth, it's my life, messed up has become normal for me. If things suddenly became stable and calm I'd probably have a panic attack waiting for "the other shoe to drop" type deal. I've noticed though that I can get depressed after some of the bigger seizures I get, it never lasts long though. I feel for any of you who have to deal with depression on a regular basis, i'm not sure if I could handle that, least with my BpNos dx I know it'll go away relatively quickly.

I seem to have more and more a low ringing in my ears. It's more noticable when everything is quiet. I didn't know that our medications could induce this, hopefully it doesn't get any louder. I've sensative hearing to begin with, something I've always loved, losing it would suck. esp. if it meant I'd be hearing buzzing all the time. There's nothing they can give for it?

No one else in my immediate family has epilepsy, that we can see. Strange behaviors, but then again my family is just plain strange on all sides anyways. However, my mother's cousin, and my fathers aunt and cousin, all had epilepsy. So it's definately there somewhere in the genes.  Migraine headaches and mood disorders run strongly in my family too. One of the reasons I've decided not to have kids myself, too many genetic problems. Bah.

Hang in there, and know we're hanging in there with you out here, you're definately not alone.

My meds have definetly made me depressed before, Keppra was hell. I'm now on Topamax (and since yesterday Dilantin) now which is better but that's when my tinitus went from being an occasional thing to being daily and being LOUD in both ears. Its called Ototoxicity i believe, damage to the inner ear by medication. Siezure meds are known to do it, kill hearing at higher frequencies. One friend of mine told me that once you get tinnitus from meds it just will never go away. Darn!  I thought it would.

I've heard of other families where both siblings will have siezures, different types. Hereditary links are still not really well researched. I asked since my father had siezures for a short time in his early twenties that he seem to outgrow- but I haven't.