im 17 going onto 18 soon.. the only time i had ever taken a real grand mal seizure in my life was in first grade (thank god). However, I am the spaciest kid alive, as everyone tells me. My memory is completely fried (as people constantly make fun of me for it), my grades have dropped tremendously, i have extreme mood swings, i feel as though i am constantly changing personalities to find out who i am, or to get others to like me (sometimes i swear i have social anxiety). My doctor confirmed that i have depression, as every day is a stuggle and i am constantly, and i mean constantly, hating myself. overall, are these typical side effects of epilepsy? and if so, i dont understand as to why they arent going away with the medication i am taking... i am taking lamotrigene and i can see absolutely no difference... however, when i dont take it, i do get extreme de ja vu, and nausia after.. (which my doctor cant really understand as to why i get these..) Overall, do you think i am forever going to be like this? has seizures officially damaged my brain forever? do you think it would almost be better to switch to an anti-deppresant?