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Hi I'm new to this site. I am 26 and had my first seizure around 7 months ago. I had another exactly 1 week later then another 6 weeks later. They have all been at night while I was sleeping. I was put on Tegretol after my last seizure and have been seizure free for 6 months. I am supposed to stay on Tegretol for 2 years. I had many tests after my first seizure, an MRI, CTG, EEG and all come up clear. Because I have had 3, I have been diagnosed with Epilepsy but I do not believe I have epilepsy as nothing showed up in the tests. My partner and I were about to try for our second child right when I had my first seizure, so it has been very hard for us. We are now thinking of trying for a child now but I don't know if I would like to continue taking the Tegretol. I think I would prefer to stop it but am concerned I will have more seizures. I would have to say that having these seizures are the worst thing that has happened to me in my life, and I was extremely paranoid of having another one but now that it has been 6 months I have regained my confidence. I know that if I was to have another seizure then I would lose my confidence again. I am just very grateful that when I have then my partner has always been in bed beside me. I find the whole seizure situation very scary as it is so new to me and it's so hard to know what to do.