"Kepprage" anyone? Switched to Lamictal.

I started Keppra with a new Neurologist closer to home. I was only on half the intended dose for a little less than two weeks and was a couple of days away from doubling my dose. I was angrier, but I didn't notice until I had a "Kepprage" fit for no reason, threw a bowl at my boyfriend and was incredibly violent. My boyfriend had to hide my car keys since I was intending on driving off a bridge. Not just suicidal thoughts, but intentions. He and my mom saved my life that night so I tapered down and saw my psychiatrist Monday. He said he's seen the "Kepprage" and to call my Neurologist to get something else. I got Ativan for anxiety and a "just in case" thing since they stop seizures.

I called that day, but he was out of town for the week. The NP just said to "call back next week." No prescription, no suggestions, nothing. It took two hours of a missed dose to almost have a grand mal, but Ativan saved the day. My seizures were very much worse, I had memory loss (seizure induced?) and called back after a week. The NP chewed me out for "not following doctors orders" and I had to make an appointment for a week later.

I saw the doctor and he seemed annoyed that I got off of Keppra and said I was his first patient to ever report suicidal behavior. He said he had the same issue so he's glad he's not the only one, but he was really casual about it and he's on both Lamictal and Keppra. I got on Lamictal starting at 100 mg twice a day. I'm completely calm, too calm. Social anxiety is 10000x worse and I have no motivation. I know it's a mood stabilizer but.. too stabilized maybe? Not sad, not happy.

Has anyone had these experiences with Keppra alone and/or Lamictal by itself? It's completely opposite. What if I tried both together if they could balance eachother out?