Hi guys. I had my first grand mal about 3 months ago, followed by nothing - until about a week ago, when I had 2 grand mals in my sleep within 24 hours. A diagnosis hasn't really been yet, but the doctor has put me on 800mg of Epilim.
My title might startle you, I have researched a lot about Epilepsy since all this has happened to me and I am very well aware of the fact that they say depression cannot cause epilepsy...but then again, I'm also aware of the fact that this disorder has been around for thousands of years and they basically know next to nothing about it.
I am not here to cry myself a river or to seek sympathy, simply answers. I had a very very tough childhood, basically having to deal with a psychopath of a father who was very mentally, emotionally and physically abusive (mostly to mother the physical part). But you learn to "deal" with things like that, or rather just get on with your life. In fact, I've usually been a very happy and bubbly person which I'm very greatful for because most other people in my situation would probably become very suicidal. For the past couple of years or so however, I have slowly been spiraling down...it started with some horrific bullying in my last years of high school which led me to have no friends and subsequently no self esteem and no social life (especially since my mother was very protective of me and my "education" and never let me go out).
So back to the epilepsy part. In the few months before my first seizure I had been SO stressed and anxious, even more so than normal (this is grossly underexaggerated), mainly due to boyfriend issues, and self esteem issues (I only realise these now mind you). In fact last year I suffered my first anxiety attacks because of fights with my boyfriend and stress from uni.
I am seriously considering the fact that I did this (epilepsy) to myself. This doesn't just happen to normal, healthy people. By normal and healthy I mean I eat well, I don't exercise a lot but I'm not overweight, no history of epilepsy in my family, I hardly drink alcohol at all, I've never taken illicit drugs...I mean I know they call it "idiopathic" epilepsy but that's just because they don't KNOW the cause, doesn't mean there IS NO cause. Right?
Does anyone else feel like excessive stress/anxiety and depression may have caused their epilepsy? Sorry for the long post, I thought I'd give some background info. Please, if anyone can relate, please write to me, maybe we can support each other!