Vivid Dreams - Night/Sleep Seizures - Deja Vu

This was me as a teenager! I used to have these crazy dreams that were so real but so insane that I knew they weren't. Initially, they scared me but I kind of got used to them, I think. I almost felt like I could sort of control them (??). Sometimes, I could pull myself out of them or relax and stay in them. I had no idea that they were likely associated with seizures. I don't know if I was seizing while they were happening. No one ever witnessed them. And I never told anyone about them. I thought I was crazy or something! I was only diagnosed with epilepsy last year (I'm 37) after having a second GM. (I've had 2 GM seizures in my life, that I'm aware of or have been witnessed). After reading and reading about seizures, I'm pretty sure I've been having some partial seizures here and there for many, many years. I have auras with deja vu and nausea. And I get this weird, fuzzy tunnel vision thing. It's hard to explain. Over the past year, those symptoms have been worse when they happen.

I have experienced all of that my entire life.  I'm just now making the connection that it's all related to my epilepsy.

I just got diagnosed with epilepsy last year, after having seizures for seven years! Last night I had the most vivid dreams. I can still remember every bit of them. The weird part is that when I woke up, I felt exactly like I do after I've been having seizures! I haven't had any today though, so I'm not sure if I was having them in my sleep or what. Oh, and the deja vu, yes I have that also. My auras feel horrible, but I always have very intense deja vu during them. Brains are weird.