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So depressed
Mon, 07/27/2015 - 11:11Have had this for 26+ years. Always "just" auras like déjà vu, never a grand mal, for which I am thankful, but afterward, my brain is my enemy, and tries to kill me. I'm so depressed, there's no joy, nothing to live for, I go thru the motions only. This lasts anywhere from 1 day to 1 week, and when it ends it ends like flipping a light switch--bam! I'm back to myself.
While I'm being tormented I don't hurt myself because I know what it is and that it will end but oh lord I am so tired of it. I go thru each day wondering if I will feel the onset of the seizure, which I fear and hate, and it's silly in a way, because some people have it so much worse than I do. I never lose consciousness, and on-lookers never even know I am having a seizure. I'm sorry to complain on here to those of you who suffer so much more than I do. This is only the second time in 10 years I've come here. But there's no one else I can talk to.
I am on loads of meds but the longest I've gone seizure free is 20 months. Thanks for listening.