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Psychic Seizures and epilepsy in the workplace

Sun, 01/03/2016 - 21:01

Hello, I am a 33-year old female with temporal lobe epilepsy.  Medication has controlled my grand mal and complex partial seizures, though I suspect I am still experiencing simple partial, brought on by stress.

I recently moved to a new city (from Ireland where I had been for several years) for a new job.  I have been here now for almost 4 months, and have experienced a lot of stress associated with the job though I've enjoyed it.  Recently, it just seemed like the damn broke -- I began just having moments of paralyzing anxiety, with a huge sense of dread with a pit in my stomach -- I'll often begin just sobbing.  It feels like a wave of incredibly intense feeling -- everything gets louder and brighter and my brain just can't process it all -- I'm not even sure what I'm anxious about, it just feels so intense.  Strangely it always just passes and I'm fine -- though it leaves just feelings of prolonged anxiety and depression.  

I spoke to my neurologist when I saw him and he thought it might be a seizure.  He's increased my seizure medication (trileptal), but in the meantime I am embarrassed and anxious about being at work -- since it's resulted in a few emotional episodes at my new job that I'm at a loss to explain. My coworkers have described it in the same way I experiend it -- like the emotion doesn't match whatever was going on or happening around me.  I've also said things I'm embarrassed about, since in the moment it feels so alienating, like my actions have no connection with anyone else or to any other moment. Afterward it feels very fuzzy, as if I've been drugged, and I'm tired and irritated.  It is all very frustrating because I normally am fairly even-keel and can manage things at work.  

My perception is that the underlying cause are seizures (perhaps caused by stress at work, since stress has been a trigger for me before with other seizures), though the seizures themselves are causing an anxiety and stress that furthers the cycle.  I'm sure I'm "feeding into it", though I don't know how to break the cycle.  I'm almost double-guessing my own emotion now - like I'm scared that any normal amount of fear or stress is itself a seizure, or worse, will cause one.  

I also want to be able to reassure my employer.  I was honest about my seizure condition from the interview process, though I haven't yet told them about these potential seizures because I don't know how to explain them -- how do I say that it's a seizure, without making them suspicious of how I act or double-guess giving me assignments?  I do think my employer will be understanding, though I am still embarrassed and I feel at a loss to explain. 

Thank you.  I appreciate it if anyone has any insight/ advice or has experienced something similar.  

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